IOB Ch 4

“Are you ignoring me?”

“Ignoring what? There’s nothing in my mouth.”

“I asked if you’re ignoring my words.”

“I just didn’t answer because I didn’t quite know what to say.”

“In society, that’s usually described as an act of ignoring the other person, you know?”

“I regret that you felt ignored.”

“This, fucker… never mind. Who taught you all this time? It was a performance that would be hard to pull off without being taught by the book. It was completely different from the Bach you played when you were a kid…”

I couldn’t kill my hot-tempered nature and rambled on before abruptly stopping my words. Ah. I had accidentally let slip a story from the past. I wanted to hide it if possible.

I also majored in piano when I was young, and then I heard rumors about you being a genius, and after hearing your performance, I was so shocked that I couldn’t forget it even as an adult, and anyway, just hearing your performance gets me excited, and so on and so forth……. Even if I were to just plainly state the facts up to this point, I would probably look like a madman at minimum, and a stalker at maximum.

Of course, my feelings stemmed solely from a pure passion for music and were far from any base, dark intentions. A stalker? I was not that kind of irredeemable pervert. But it was obvious that the moment my erect penis was discovered, all my explanations would scatter into thin air. My true feelings would not get through.

Woo Seonrim stared at me blankly and then said in a tone as if it were no big deal.

“It seems we met when we were young.”

I skillfully put on a businessman’s face and smiled.

“I had forgotten, but I recently remembered. Mr. Seonrim, you went to a few competitions when you were young, right? You won quite a few prizes, too.”

“……”

“I went to cheer on a friend and saw Mr. Seonrim at a competition.”

“Is that so?”

“You’ve changed so much from when you were a kid, I almost didn’t recognize you. Ah, you’ve been working hard for dozens of minutes, shouldn’t you take a breather? Go to the bathroom, too. Should I get you something if you’re hungry?”

Wanting to quickly escape the situation of being alone with Woo Seonrim in the performance room, I immediately changed the subject.

“It’s fine. I can continue playing right away.”

No, I’m the one who’s not fine. My jaw clenched tightly.

A pervert who is always vaguely suffering from unfulfilled desires. I was keenly realizing that I was such a trivial being. Having heard a performance that perfectly satisfied my desires for the first time in a long time, my excitement had boiled over excessively. Even though the performance was over, this damn dick wouldn’t cool down.

I held the edge of the blanket with my hand and said.

“Passion is good, but let’s take a break. I’ll go clear my head a bit, too. That way, I can fully appreciate the next performance.”

It’s not my head, but my testicles that I need to quickly squeeze and empty…….

“That’s a good point.”

Only then did Woo Seonrim slowly get up from the piano bench. Conscious of him approaching me with heavy steps, I quickly racked my brain. How could I naturally get out of the room? Would it look a bit strange if I got up with the blanket covering my lower body? Let’s wait until Woo Seonrim leaves. That would be good. I must not startle Woo Seonrim. Let’s keep that in mind.

Director, were you a pervert? It wasn’t because I was afraid of being taunted and ridiculed by him like that. I was worried that Woo Seonrim wouldn’t be able to concentrate on his performance due to the mental shock. If it were me, I think I would be very surprised and my body would freeze if I came face to face with a man’s swollen crotch. Wouldn’t I probably try to run away from that spot right away?

“Director.”

In the midst of my considerate worries for Woo Seonrim, he had already approached and stood at my feet. I lifted my head, which had been tilted slightly.

“Do you have any simple snacks?”

As I heard his light voice, the not-so-light sight I was met with momentarily took my breath away.

…What is that?

“……”

What is it? Why, right in front of me… is a heavy… outline… like a fully erect dick…?

Unless the overwhelming performance had made my mind hazy and there was something wrong with my vision, Woo Seonrim was clearly erect. The volume of his penis, trapped under his slacks, was distinctly palpable even at a glance.

“If you don’t want to give me a snack, then never mind. You’re not answering.”

“……”

“You really don’t want to.”

“……”

Woo Seonrim looked so absurdly composed that I had no idea how I should react.

What’s with him, being so bold? Why isn’t he embarrassed, standing there with his dick hard as a rock? Am I the strange one for anxiously covering my lower body with a blanket? Is it normal for men to be able to show this kind of thing to each other so boldly? …As if that would be the case.

No, but in the first place, why is that bastard turned on?

I forced my way through my tightly constricted throat.

“Um, ahem, Mr. Seonrim.”

“Yes.”

“Take about two steps back.”

Woo Seonrim’s crotch was too close. With a huge dick that would easily surpass the average size for a Korean male looming before my eyes, I felt like I was entering a state of mental and physical weakness with each passing moment.

Woo Seonrim stepped back silently without even asking for a reason. I gasped for breath and rubbed my face vigorously with my cold palms.

“…Mr. Seonrim, why are you like this as a person?”

I was at a loss as to where to even begin pointing things out, so I started by letting out a heartfelt lament.

“Director, your question is too vague.”

Hearing this from a guy who was the very definition of vagueness was absurd. The tautly erect center of Woo Seonrim kept flickering in my vision. His lower body was in that state, yet Woo Seonrim’s face was as calm and pale as usual.

It seems that when dealing with Woo Seonrim, there is no need to beat around the bush and maintain a minimum of social decorum. That kind of thing doesn’t work on him. Trying to have a normal conversation would only make my head split open.

“…Mr. Seonrim, your dick is hard.”

“I know.”

See. Crazy bastard. If I had seriously asked after worrying about it, I would have just been the one to get frustrated.

“Did you get too into the performance? It happens sometimes. You get immersed, the dopamine spikes, and that thing down there spikes too… I think it’s a common thing.”

“Is that so?”

His placid face, acting as if he’s talking about someone else, makes me heat up.

“But… walking around with it exposed isn’t a common thing, is it? Don’t you have any shame, Mr. Seonrim?”

“Are you angry?”

“…Why would I be angry? It’s just that your attitude is absurd right now.”

“My attitude?”

“Acting all brazen as if nothing happened.”

“No. I’m actually quite flustered right now. This is the first time I’ve gotten an erection after a performance. It’s fascinating.”

“You don’t look like a flustered person at all, Mr. Seonrim.”

“I’ve been told I have a poker face a lot.”

“It’s not on that level. No, fuck. Are you an alien? I can’t communicate with you… Ugh!”

Agitated, I crossed my legs out of habit and then froze. My erect penis got caught between my thighs and was stimulated. A tingling sensation spread through my lower abdomen. I quickly bit my lip to swallow a moan and returned my legs to a proper posture.

Even though the situation had come to this, my penis still showed no signs of dying down. Why on earth? Was the performance that moving? In this case, do I even have the right to lecture Woo Seonrim? No, still, I covered my crotch with a blanket and am a human who knows at least a minimum of shame. Of course, it might be a case of the pot calling the kettle black.

“That sound just now was good.”

“What?”

“You just moaned.”

Woo Seonrim immediately corrected my wavering judgment. As expected, I am a much better person than Woo Seonrim. He is the stranger one.

“When did I, you bastard.”

“The octave was just right to listen to.”

“What are you on about, you crazy bastard?”

My social mask completely fell away, and the way of speaking I had learned while rolling around in a gangster family came out. Woo Seonrim continued speaking, completely unfazed by my rough tone.

“I think you’re a rather peculiar person, Director.”

“Fuck, hearing that from you makes my blood boil.”

“I get an erection when I’m with you, Director. Why could that be?”

Suddenly, a chill ran down my entire body. I felt an instinctual sense of threat and sank my body into the back of the sofa.

“I’m ignorant in this area. I think you would know well, Director.”

“……”

“Your mouth is open.”

“…Because I’m so shocked…”

“As soon as the performance ended, I saw you, and I got hard right away. It’s a strange thing. Hearing you moan made it even more…”

“Stop, stop!”

I cried out urgently. It was because Woo Seonrim was calmly spouting nonsense and coming right up to me. Thud. Woo Seonrim’s knee touched my leg. I twisted my body in fright, and the blanket I had placed over my lower body was disheveled. Just like that, my bulging crotch was exposed. Unfortunately, my penis was not small enough to be well-contained even when erect.

Woo Seonrim moved his gaze to stare at my center and then smiled faintly. A shiver ran down my spine once at the face that felt no heat. A shiver ran down my spine a second time at the sound of his laughter, which I had never heard before, that flowed from Woo Seonrim’s red lips.

…He’s laughing?

“You’re a really fun person, Director.”

“……”

“I wasn’t expecting this much today. Ah, this is fun.”

I had thought it from the first time I saw him, but as expected, I am scared of Woo Seonrim.

“I didn’t know you would get excited by me too, Director.”

It was as if I had encountered an alien being. No communication was possible, there was no way to figure out his thoughts, and the only thing I could do was to silently witness the incomprehensible fear approaching me.

Woo Seonrim was the most beautiful and bizarre person I had ever seen in my life.

I tried to get up from the sofa while covering my lower body with the blanket. However, Woo Seonrim gently grabbed my shoulder and pushed me back down.

“Hey, take your hand off.”

When I shrugged my shoulder in fright, Woo Seonrim’s grip surprisingly let go obediently. Though his unpleasantly deep gaze was still fixed on me. As I tried to get up again, Woo Seonrim said in a low voice.

“Where are you going?”

“This is my house. It’s my business where I go. Won’t you move?”

As expected, you shouldn’t rashly let a stranger into your house. I had forgotten that basic common sense, bewitched by Woo Seonrim’s performance. I didn’t know he would be the type of guy to shove his erect penis in front of another man. Who could have imagined such a thing?

Still, if I put my mind to it, I could easily get away from Woo Seonrim. If I took out the cell phone in my pants pocket and connected to the emergency contact list, Driver Kim would come to the house right away with a few people.

But my hand didn’t readily move toward my cell phone. For some reason, I was reluctant to call people. If I treated Woo Seonrim as a dangerous person and subdued him. Of course, he is a dangerous person. But what if Woo Seonrim gets hurt in the process? He is a precious, precious performer…

The worst-case scenario is that this incident gets to President Choi’s ears. He was an old man who never forgave anyone who laid a hand on his own bloodline. He might deem Woo Seonrim impertinent and get rid of him or block him from ever approaching me. And just like that, I would be forever separated from Woo Seonrim…

Oh my god. How horrible. Not being able to hear Woo Seonrim’s performance is far more horrible than facing Woo Seonrim’s dickhead.

“When did you get excited, Director?”

That’s why even when Woo Seonrim was looking over my crotch and asking such questions, I could only rant and rave with my words.

“This didn’t happen because of you. First, just get lost…”

“It’s not because of me? But there are only the two of us here.”

“There are circumstances. Long circumstances.”

“……”

“So don’t get your hopes up and move. I’m very displeased right now, you know?”

“I don’t think it would be like that down there if you were displeased.”

“I told you there are circumstances. You bastard, are your ears not open?”

“Can I touch it?”

“Are you not listening to me right now?”

“Can you let me hear just a little more of your moans?”

To prevent me from running away, Woo Seonrim pressed down on both sides of my knees with his legs. I was trapped between Woo Seonrim’s thighs, unable to move at all. Fuck, should I just call Driver Kim? No, I can’t. If the guards come, they’ll definitely beat that bastard Woo Seonrim up. Anyone can see that a crazy guy is doing crazy things to his employer.

I contorted my face and tried to spread my legs by putting strength into my thighs. However, I couldn’t push Woo Seonrim away. I could vividly feel Woo Seonrim’s thigh muscles pressing down on me. He looked skinny at a glance, but his frame was incredibly solid. Are his joints made of iron or something?

Woo Seonrim was ridiculously strong. As someone who had lifted quite a bit of iron at the gym, I felt my pride being shattered. My inner thigh muscles, which had reached their limit, trembled.

I clenched my teeth and glared at Woo Seonrim.

“Release your strength.”

“I’m not really using any strength.”

“Fuck, are you gay?”

“No.”

I shot the question at him sharply, but a fresh, immediate answer came back.

“Then why are you doing this? Do you have a hobby of getting fucked by men? Go find it somewhere else.”

“Pardon? What are you talking about?”

Woo Seonrim’s eyebrows twitched, and he made a bewildered expression. I’m the one who should be bewildered.

“I’m sorry, but… I don’t want to have sex with you, Director.”

“Hey! I don’t want to either!”

“I just want to hear a little more of your moans. The sound was interesting. But to get a moan, you have to apply stimulation, right? Um, if you don’t want me to touch you, it’s fine for you to touch yourself.”

“What kind of, fuck, dog-dick-chewing nonsense are you…”

“If you’re embarrassed, shall I do it next to you?”

“Do what together, what. Fuck, in all my life, what a… to think I brought such a pervert into my house, liking him…”

“Please do me this favor. It’s been a really long time since I’ve been this excited. I think it will help with my music.”

Shit, this feels disgusting. Fuck, fuck… Whatever Woo Seonrim was blabbering about, I was muttering curses vehemently until I heard the word ‘music’ and froze. It was a spinal reflex-like reaction.

“…It will help with your music?”

“Yes. I’m not suggesting we have sex. And I wouldn’t ask for such a favor for my own pleasure. In the first place, I’m a person with almost no sex drive.”

“……”

“I’ve been working on a piece lately. I was feeling uneasy because I didn’t like the ending. I think it will be resolved if I hear your moans, Director.”

“…You compose too?”

“I’ll let you hear it when it’s finished.”

“Do it now.”

“It’s not finished. I’m telling you, it’ll be finished only when I hear your moans, Director.”

Woo Seonrim said this, squinting one eye slightly. But it was in a tone as if he was a little frustrated with me… as if he was rebuking me, asking which ear I had heard everything he had said with. Now who’s talking to whom. I was so dumbfounded that I couldn’t control my temper and threw a punch.

So what if he’s strong, what’s he going to do if he gets punched in the solar plexus? I extended my arm with that thought, but I stopped my hand right in front of his solar plexus. The back of my hand, with its bulging veins, trembled.

Fuck… I can’t hit him. What if he passes out?

My fists had been trained through learning various martial arts. The thought of Woo Seonrim vomiting up all the food I had painstakingly made after getting punched made my hand naturally lose its strength.

I hadn’t even heard him play for a full hour yet.

Besides, a composition by Woo Seonrim. How good would Woo Seonrim’s composition skills be? I had already heard his arranging skills and knew they were extraordinary.

Even with the risk of having my dick violated by Woo Seonrim right in front of me, my curiosity about his performance was stronger than my fear. Choi Yisak, you crazy bastard, perverted bastard, you’ve lost your mind. I cursed at myself. Right, in the first place, if I were a sane person, I wouldn’t be having this kind of squabble with Woo Seonrim.

I trembled my arm and then moved it behind my back and said.

“Really… all you need to hear is a moan?”

“Yes.”

Crazy for Woo Seonrim. A dog who would just greedily devour any music Woo Seonrim gave, a pitiful pervert who knew he was a madman and yet walked right into the madman’s arms… That was me.

“What the hell, let’s just do it now, whatever. Ah, ah! Is this how I do it?”

“No. Not at all, Director. That’s fake.”

“Fuck, then what do you want me to do?”

“You have to let me hear the real thing. Why are you acting like this when you should know better?”

Woo Seonrim’s voice, speaking as if he were placating me, was really annoying. In the midst of this, that thick-skinned face didn’t change its expression one bit.

“What is the real thing? What do you want me to do?”

“That’s why I said I would touch you…”

“The moment you touch me, it’ll go limp.”

“Hmm, then touch yourself.”

“You’re right in front of me. Just looking at you makes it go limp. My dick dies, I’m telling you.”

“It’s still very much alive.”

Right. It should have been dead by now. Why is this happening? The afterglow of the performance still hasn’t worn off, it seems.

“Director, how about this method?”

“What?”

“Blindfolding you.”

In an instant, my vision went dark. Woo Seonrim’s left hand covered and pressed down on my eyes.

“Hey, mph, move your hand.”

Woo Seonrim’s large palm pressed down on the bridge of my nose, putting pressure on it. I couldn’t breathe. I twisted my whole body nervously and was about to strike Woo Seonrim’s arm with my fist but froze.

Aah, fuck… I can’t hit him.

It was because I was worried again that Woo Seonrim might hurt his elbow or something if I did. Why was I born so unnecessarily sturdy and strong? Of course, I lost the arm wrestle… but in a real fight, I’m definitely superior. I have the experience of growing up watching gangsters, don’t I? My fists are practically a weapon…

In the end, I just twisted my head this way and that with my hands hovering vaguely in the air. It all became a useless act because Woo Seonrim’s palm stuck to me tenaciously. Since I couldn’t create a disturbance with my body, I was overcome with anger and kept running my mouth.

“Are you crazy? You just want to die, don’t you? Since I keep letting you off, fuck.”

Woo Seonrim might have noticed that it was just an empty threat. Woo Seonrim was calm throughout.

“Director, please try to stay still for a bit.”

“Are you trying to teach me now?”

“How about we both stay quiet? It would be better for you if you want to not be conscious of me being with you.”

“It’s all useless. Even if you do this, my dick will just go limp the moment it touches you.”

“You seem quite certain.”

For my entire 30 years of life, I had tried to have sex in various ways. I had even gone as far as to have skinship while listening to a performance with earphones plugged into my ears.

However, it was all in vain. The moment I recognized that I was touching another person’s bare skin, my excitement quickly cooled. The more I tried to set up an erotic situation, the more strength drained from my dick.

“I won’t speak from now on. You should also try to think that I’m not here, Director.”

“I told you it’s a useless act.”

“……”

“Hey. Hey!”

Woo Seonrim did not answer. He seemed intent on really sticking to the concept of silence.

“Haah, fuck… fine, go ahead and try.”

“……”

“Let’s see how far you go. No matter how hard you try, it won’t work.”

“……”

“In this time, you should just shut up and sit at the piano and play. Fuck… huh, what’s that? Why do I hear the sound of a zipper going down?”

“……”

“Woo Seonrim. If you’re thinking of taking out your dick and shoving it at me, don’t even dream of it. Get lost. You smell. You’re dirty.”

“……”

“It’s creepy. It’s annoying. I’ll close my eyes, so first take your hand off my face. …Fuck, you don’t answer a single word, but you listen to things like this well.”

“……”

“Crazy bastard, perverted bastard. Even when I try to treat you nicely, you turn my insides upside down, so there’s nothing I can do. Puke up everything I cooked for you earlier, you son of a bitch. You ungrateful bastard. I don’t know what you’re thinking, but I just find all of this disgusting… ugh!”

Squeeze. Just then, a strong stimulus rushed to my crotch. A few seconds later, I belatedly recognized the situation. Woo Seonrim was pressing his knee firmly against my center. How dare he.

“What, what are you doing?”

“……”

“Aren’t you going to move your knee? Ah, it’s already dying. My dick is dying. It’s so disgusting and I feel so nauseous I can’t live… did you just touch my pants?”

“……”

“Hey, Mr. Woo Seonrim? Have you lost your mind? Hey, don’t unzip my zipper. What are you doing? You son of a bitch. Fuck, what are you…!”

I opened my eyes wide in fright. And the sight that filled my vision was shocking.

Woo Seonrim was kneeling on one knee on the floor, holding my thing in his hand. His several pale, long fingers were wrapped around the shaft like a rope. Another person’s skin felt so vivid.

It should have been disgusting. My stomach should have churned, the erection should have quickly subsided, and a migraine should have set in, if it were the usual me. If I were the usual Choi Yisak, that is.

But even in this situation, my thing was still excited. Woo Seonrim looked at my face steadily and said.

“It’s still the same down there even when I touch it, isn’t it?”

Woo Seonrim gestured toward my penis with his eyes.

“No, this is…”

This can’t be happening.

“Director.”

“……”

“Lying is not very good.”

I wish it were a lie. I wished that the fact that I was a strange, broken guy who couldn’t get excited by humans, and that this strangeness had temporarily disappeared only in front of Woo Seonrim, that all of this was a lie.

“Since you seem to be fine, I’ll touch you more. Please be sure to let me hear your voice.”

Strength entered Woo Seonrim’s hand that was holding my penis. My shoulders naturally curled inward. A tingling sensation started from the root of my penis and enveloped my entire lower abdomen.

It was the first time in my life that I had entrusted my erect dick to another person’s hand. Until now, my erection would always subside whenever I tried to get to the main event. From the moment I recognized that another person was touching my body, the excitement would disappear and a feeling of displeasure would arise. It’s dirty, where are you touching, how dare you… In the end, this twisted feeling would surge up.

But Woo Seonrim’s hand was fine. His skin was unexpectedly firm and rough. A hand that bore the traces of labor. It was definitely not the hand of someone who dressed up nicely and only sat in front of a piano.

Just then, Woo Seonrim began to slowly move his wrist up and down.

“Hnngh, ugh!”

A moan escaped reflexively. After letting it out, I was startled myself and glanced at Woo Seonrim. Woo Seonrim was staring at me with one corner of his mouth slightly raised.

“This is it.”

“What… ugh.”

“The sound I wanted to hear.”

“Get, get lost… uhh, ugh.”

It feels like my back is melting. I wanted to kick him with my foot now, without caring if Woo Seonrim got hurt or not, my mind was definitely set on that. But I can’t put strength into my body.

Just like when I first learned the act of masturbation as a child, a sense of fear washed over me at the pleasure I couldn’t dare to control. My penis, which had not experienced any particular stimulation until now, was no different from that of a novice and twitched, not knowing what to do. What a body, not acting its age.

Even with the light stimulation from Woo Seonrim, my vision flashed. The breath escaping between my parted lips grew hot, and the tip of my tongue became parched. How ridiculous must I look. But I had no room to worry about my dignity. Just putting strength into my upper body to keep from writhing my hips as if I were begging was overwhelming enough.

“Director, why do you have no hair here?”

In the midst of the chaos, I heard a voice that seemed to be asking out of pure curiosity. It was a voice that was not at all clingy. So much so that it made me wonder if I was the strange one for going crazy and jumping around just because I was getting a hand job from another man.

“Do you not grow hair naturally?”

“Fuck… shut up.”

As if that would be the case. I’m a dark-skinned man over thirty. I just groomed it. Even though I had no one to show it to, the waxing I got during my study abroad in the US has remained a habit until now.

“It’s like a child’s dick.”

Where did he learn to say such things? With an elegant appearance that didn’t match a guy who lives in a semi-basement, Woo Seonrim acted vulgarly with composure. With the fingertips that had been striking the keyboard just a moment ago, he was now rubbing my glans.

“Huh, heok……”

The top of my pelvis lifted. It was becoming increasingly difficult to maintain a sitting posture. I learned for the first time today that stimulating the glans feels this good.

All this time, I had always dealt with my sexual desire in a dry and plain manner. For me, masturbation was closer to a ritual that had to be performed periodically for health. Not being properly aroused, there were many times I had to force myself to squeeze out semen by grabbing and shaking the shaft.

Woo Seonrim seemed to think I was naturally experienced……. If anything, it seems Woo Seonrim is the experienced one. His firm fingertips pressed down on my glans and rummaged around the urethral opening. I clamped my hand over my mouth to prevent a novice-like moan from escaping.

“Mph, ugh.”

“Are you holding back your voice? But this, in its own way, is nice to listen to.”

I threw my head back and rubbed the floor with the tips of my toes. I feel like I’m going crazy. Do all people live feeling this kind of sexual pleasure? As a sense of revulsion and disgust welled up at the thought that humans are such lewd beings, my glans steadily gushed out precum.

As the strength left my stomach, my body naturally crumbled to one side. I was on the verge of collapsing onto the sofa at any moment. Just then, Woo Seonrim reached out and grabbed my side.

“Director.”

I turned my head, which had been thrown back, and looked at Woo Seonrim. Why is he still looking so composed? I’m suddenly getting pissed off.

“What, you fucking… ugh.”

“You look like you’re having a hard time, would you like to lie down?”

As if he were just asking out of courtesy, Woo Seonrim didn’t even wait for an answer and shot up to approach me. The hand that had been enveloping my penis for a while was gone. Perhaps having grown accustomed to his body heat, a coolness was felt on my skin, and faint goosebumps rose.

Woo Seonrim pushed me as I was and toppled me onto the sofa. His touch was quite rough. Before I could even point that out, his large body was on top of mine.

It was a cramped sofa for two men who were well above average height to be entangled on. I was trapped by Woo Seonrim with no room to move an inch. Squeeze, Woo Seonrim’s crotch was directly against my leg.

“Ugh, fuck……”

Woo Seonrim had only unzipped his pants, so his penis was still in his underwear. Nevertheless, its outline was vividly felt. I’ve lived a life with little interest in men’s penises, so I don’t know for sure, but this size would definitely be on the large side.

“Get it off… Hnngh.”

Woo Seonrim pressed down on me with his whole body and grabbed my penis again.

“Ge, get off. My words, ugh, don’t they sound like words… aahk.”

I wanted to snap at him coldly, but my tongue kept getting twisted. It was a situation too harsh for a thirty-year-old virgin.

As always, Woo Seonrim didn’t even pretend to listen to me. He just stared down at me, maintaining an annoying silence. Meanwhile, his hands were busily kneading my dick. I didn’t have the confidence to meet his gaze, so I turned my head to the side.

In many ways, I felt like crying. My pride as a man was hurt, and I was anxious about being found out as a virgin. In the midst of that, I was flustered by myself being captivated by the sharp pleasure that pounded every cell in my body.

Now that I have finally succeeded in sexual contact with another person, should I be happy that my abnormal sexual desire has been cured? But the other person is Woo Seonrim? Why on earth is that guy doing this with a nonchalant, no, now a gradually intrigued expression…….

Woo Seonrim said in a low voice.

“Director, I’d appreciate it if you’d stop holding back your moans soon. And please don’t bite your lip. I want to hear it a little louder.”

Crazy bastard, does he think I’m some kind of vending machine that moans when you press a button? Then again, a guy who rushes in saying he’ll get inspiration and excitement from another person’s voice can’t be in his right mind. Am I one to talk, having tried to relieve my sexual desire with another’s performance?

But who cares. People are naturally lenient with themselves. I am fine, and Woo Seonrim is not. At least I have never thought about taking off Woo Seonrim’s underwear.

“I’m glad you seem to be enjoying it too, Director.”

“Fuck, when did I……”

“Is it not good?”

Out of useless pride, I purposely looked straight at Woo Seonrim and said, as if snapping at him.

“Yeah. You may be good at playing the piano with those hands, ugh, but when it comes to shaking a dick, hnngh, you don’t seem to be very good at it?”

“You must have a lot of experience, Director, so I might feel lacking to you.”

Since there’s no basis for comparison, I have no idea if Woo Seonrim is good at it or not. Compared to doing it myself, the momentary stimulation was less, but the overall feeling of excitement was much deeper.

“Please teach me in various ways later.”

“Later? There is no later… ugh!”

“Ah, excuse me for a moment.”

Woo Seonrim suddenly took his hand off my penis and pulled his own out of his underwear. I glanced down and was so startled that I closed my eyes.

What is that. What the hell is that. What do you mean what is it. It’s a man’s dick.

Unlike his pale skin, Woo Seonrim’s penis was dark in color and had a reddish tinge. The pubic hair at the top, which was slightly visible, was also jet black and dense. In contrast to his elegantly beautiful face, his penis looked even more heinous. With that pretty face, he walks around with something like that down there? As expected, Woo Seonrim is a strange bastard.

After my eyes met with the massive penis, I felt a sense of intimidation for no reason. Why did he suddenly take that big thing out……. What is he planning to do……. The question was quickly resolved. Woo Seonrim pressed down on me from above and tried to press our crotches together.

“Ugh!”

As Woo Seonrim’s weight bore down, I couldn’t breathe. My face instantly turned bright red, and it probably wasn’t just because of the lack of oxygen. The problem was that our penises, in their natural state without a single piece of underwear, were stuck together.

Sssk, Woo Seonrim moved his pelvis from above. Our penises were squashed and rubbed together, and our precum soaked into each other’s skin.

“……What?”

I was in shock and then muttered in a dazed voice a little too late.

“What, what are you doing?”

Even to my own ears, my voice had none of the dignity befitting someone four years older and a Director. I was that surprised. Didn’t Woo Seonrim clearly say, ‘I don’t want to have sex with you, Director,’ earlier?

Then is this not sex? Really? ……Something like this?

No, this is sex. This should be called sex. We’re rubbing our dicks together!

What on earth is Woo Seonrim’s concept of sex like? The shock hammered into my mind, stunned by his promiscuity. That bastard, I didn’t see him like that…….

“You, you perverted, bastard. Won’t you get off? What, what is this without even saying anything.”

“What? I said excuse me.”

The height of shamelessness.

“Get off, fuck!”

I struggled under Woo Seonrim. My one and only precious performer’s body… to hell with what happens to it. My patience had reached its limit. Thwack, thwack, I raised my knees and struck Woo Seonrim’s legs. I was planning to hit Woo Seonrim’s back and the back of his head with both my arms, but Woo Seonrim let out a short sigh and grabbed my wrists, pressing them down.

“Director, it hurts.”

“I hit you to make it hurt, you son of a bitch.”

As I struggled, Woo Seonrim pushed both my hands down onto the sofa even more forcefully. I couldn’t escape from Woo Seonrim’s grip.

“Aren’t you going to let go?”

“You don’t like it?”

“Of course I don’t. Is that even a question? You, fuck, are you bragging because your dick is big? Won’t you move it away?”

Squeeze, Woo Seonrim put strength into his pelvis and pressed closer to my crotch. The moment our slippery penis shafts rubbed against each other, my vision flashed.

“I thought you would enjoy this more, Director. And you look like you are right now.”

“You crazy bastard…… what kind of, hnngh, fucking bullshit is that?”

“You curse too much, Director.”

“You should behave yourself first. So that nice words will come out, fuck. You’re the one who hit a person first…… heu, aah.”

Thwack! Woo Seonrim pushed his pelvis forward forcefully. Then he began to move his hips up and down. Judging by the way he was moving, it was no different from the act of insertion.

It was as if I were being fucked by Woo Seonrim. How dare you use my crotch as an onahole and masturbate? My anger flared so much that my body temperature soared and my lower abdomen trembled. The fact that my forehead was hot as a fireball was probably due to anger as well. Definitely not from arousal.

I ignored the pleasure that was turning my mind to mush and tried to push Woo Seonrim down with all my strength. What does he take me for? You bastard, do you know who I am? The kind of power-tripping lines that President Choi would say tickled the back of my throat.

I was on the verge of unleashing the temper I had inherited from President Choi and starting to struggle. Just then, Woo Seonrim lowered his head and came right up to my nose. His grip, which had been pressing down on my wrists without a gap just a moment ago, somehow became gentle. That’s right. This was my chance. I should have taken this opportunity to strike Woo Seonrim, but.

“Director.”

I couldn’t do it.

“It will only take a moment.”

It was because of Woo Seonrim’s face staring at me. It wasn’t his usual face, which looked bored and dazed as if he were a step removed from the real world.

He had returned to the Woo Seonrim who was playing the piano a few minutes ago. His eyes were intense and even glinted with light. The corners of his mouth were curled up in an arc. His skin was flushed with color. The heat and vitality emanating from Woo Seonrim pressed down on me. It was as if I were a piano, and I had to entrust myself to his fingertips.

He’s a bastard who tries to do perverted things while shamelessly pressing down with force. My head definitely thought that, but I just stared at Woo Seonrim as if I were possessed. My struggling body stiffened.

“You shouldn’t bite your lip.”

Without realizing it, I did as Woo Seonrim said. The strength also left my jaw muscles, which had been tensed up. Was he amused by me listening to him so obediently? Woo Seonrim parted his lips slightly and laughed out loud like before. He was not the listless man who could barely manage even a faint smile.

“You are really the best, Director.”

The best at what? Before I could ask back, Woo Seonrim began to move his hips again. His movements were much rougher and faster than before.

Thwack, thwack, splat, the sound of our crotches, soaked with precum, colliding, echoed. Woo Seonrim grabbed my head with his large palm. Then, he looked at me with his vibrant eyes and would even laugh, haha, from time to time.

He’s laughing? Fuck, why? What’s so funny? I can’t understand Woo Seonrim’s sense of humor. Why is Woo Seonrim so innocently excited right now, like a child who has received a new toy?

And why is he so uselessly beautiful, just like when he is playing the piano?

I think of the human Woo Seonrim as scary and bizarre, but I loved only the performer Woo Seonrim. That’s why my whole body had frozen. My idol is on top of me. With the expression I revere.

“Hn, ugh, ugh…!”

My body was shaken wildly as Woo Seonrim moved. The smell, feel, and sound that can only be felt from a living human. It wasn’t unpleasant. Rather, my dick was facing a historic moment. For the first time, it was on the verge of ejaculating due to contact with another person. I was suddenly scared, as if I were a child who knew nothing of sex. An unknown world is approaching.

I grabbed Woo Seonrim’s shoulder with my pathetically trembling hands.

“Woo, Woo Seonrim.”

Woo Seonrim did not take his eyes off my face for a single moment. I doubted if he had even blinked his eyelids.

“Move… haah, uh, fuck…”

“Isn’t it good?”

“Ugh, do, don’t press. Don’t press any more.”

Woo Seonrim purposely pushed his pelvis forward and pressed against my penis. It felt as if my tightly crushed penis would burst. Haha, Woo Seonrim laughed as if he were enjoying himself. His laughter digs into my ears and messes up my brain. My stomach is churning, but at the same time, it feels good.

The sensation of cumming washed over me. I stood on my toes and rubbed the surface of the sofa. I must be making a terrible face. I want to turn my head, but I can’t because I’m caught in Woo Seonrim’s grip.

“Do you feel like you’re going to cum?”

“No……”

“You’re lying again.”

Woo Seonrim shot his upper body up. Then, he grabbed my penis, which had reached the brink of climax, and began to shake it up and down rapidly.

“Haaah! Ah, ah…!”

As soon as I was freed from the body pressing down on me, my hips twisted this way and that, and my limbs trembled. My senses were heightened to their maximum. Even the sound of Woo Seonrim’s breath, which he let out as if it were nothing, felt like a stimulus.

As soon as Woo Seonrim moved his hand a few times, gush, semen spurted out. With my hips lifted upward, the ejaculation didn’t stop for several seconds. Woo Seonrim cupped my penis with both his palms and caught all the sticky semen.

My whole body was tingling. My mind, ravaged by pleasure, was utterly dazed. So, even as Woo Seonrim pulled out a tissue from nearby and wiped the semen off his hands, I just stayed there blankly.

The strength to add even a single word to this situation only came when Woo Seonrim rolled up my shirt and poked my navel.

“…What are you doing?”

“Excuse me.”

That damn excuse. If he says excuse me three times, he’ll be asking to borrow my ass next. Woo Seonrim started to shake his fully erect penis over my navel. Poke, poke, his glans, covered in precum, occasionally touched my navel. Not long after, Woo Seonrim poured his semen onto my lower abdomen.

“Fuck, you’re now…!”

Sticky semen clung to my skin. Because I shot up my upper body in fright, the semen trickled down and even stained my clothes. I felt like I was going to faint and quickly wiped my stomach vigorously with a tissue.

Unlike my flustered self, Woo Seonrim spoke in a leisurely and fresh voice.

“Director, it’s complete.”

“What?”

The very person who had just shot his semen onto another man’s navel was smiling brightly. It was an unrealistic sight. This crazy bastard…

“My original composition. I just now remembered the part I was stuck on.”

I froze my hand that was wiping away the semen.

“It’s all thanks to you, Director. Shall I play it for you now?”

I reflexively nodded my head. In that moment, my will to be angry at Woo Seonrim vanished.

No, Choi Yisak is so easy…. Is this okay? I felt a sense of self-loathing, but I couldn’t stop the anticipation for his original composition.

Woo Seonrim put his still hard and swollen penis back into his underwear and then stood up from the sofa. Like that, with his pants zipper halfway down, he walked with heavy steps toward the piano.

A flushed face, disheveled hair, unzipped pants. Woo Seonrim sat at the piano looking for all the world like someone who had just engaged in a thoroughly lewd act. And then, without even catching his breath, he immediately began to play.

I sat up halfway and watched Woo Seonrim. Even the thought of scolding him, asking if he was going to touch the keyboard with those dirty hands even after wiping the semen with a tissue, didn’t cross my mind. It felt like I shouldn’t disturb even a single one of Woo Seonrim’s breaths right now.

“Ha…”

This is an original composition, this is really a piece he just completed… As if I had been hit on the head and lost my memory, everything that had happened just before became irrelevant. I just let out a dry laugh out of sheer disbelief.

You crazy bastard. You really are a genius.

Woo Seonrim once again moves far away from me and enters his own world. Into his own music. I don’t even dare to approach that place. Just watching was enough, and I even felt a strange sense of ecstasy.

Look at this. My ears were not wrong.

The performance that had captivated me in my childhood, which in some ways was rather crude. But within it, there was a clear power. Something unique to Woo Seonrim that no one could imitate. A power enjoyed only by those truly chosen by God.

The notes run forward. Even though it’s a piano solo, the sound fills me up without any gaps, as if I were listening to an orchestra. I am busy just trying to follow the melody that Woo Seonrim creates. With each passing phrase, a deep sense of regret washes over me. I want to hear more. In more detail.

Without even thinking of cleaning up the penis that had just shot out semen, I focused only on Woo Seonrim’s performance. Before I knew it, the piece was racing toward its end. Which part of this piece was he stuck on? How did you untangle the knotted thread? I questioned Woo Seonrim in my mind and observed his side profile and fingers.

Just then, Woo Seonrim, who I thought had separated from me and gone to the other side, turned his head and looked at me. Our gazes met in a straight line.

Even while staring intently at me, Woo Seonrim’s fingers did not stop. He continued the performance at his planned pace. He just kept his gaze fixed on me. But that gaze is so intense. I felt a pain as if my heart were being squeezed. It was as if Woo Seonrim’s eyes and the notes he created were saying this to me.

You are in this world, too.

The melody creates a scene. Thump, thump, the heavy and fast bass notes reminded me of Woo Seonrim’s hip movements from before. And then the sticky arpeggio that followed.

The smell of semen, which I hadn’t been conscious of for a moment, once again enveloped my nose. This time, it felt as if Woo Seonrim was telling me to remember. Not to forget the excitement from before.

I don’t know how it would be for other humans, but at least for me. For Choi Yisak, there was no more intense and blatant seduction than this. My penis reacted helplessly to it, and my lower body became hot again.

I was… hard again.

I grabbed my trembling knees with my hands and turned my head to avoid Woo Seonrim’s gaze. My fingertips grew cold and stiff.

I’m scared.

I’m scared because it’s so good. I want to stay in this space forever, but at the same time, I want to escape, overwhelmed by the unfamiliar excitement. Fuck, fuck…. What on earth would Woo Seonrim say if he saw my re-erected state?

When the final note finally rang out, I shot up and adjusted my pants. Even as I rushed out of the room, Woo Seonrim didn’t say a single word to my back. Did he notice I was excited? He’s acting as if he knew I would run away.

I went into the bathroom, locked the door, and looked in the mirror. There was a strange man in it. A flushed face that, to anyone, looked like someone who had just had sex.

And I had an intuition. That I had changed somehow, and that the abnormal sexual desire that had tormented me for years had also entered a new phase.

Just as when the abnormal sexual desire had begun, Woo Seonrim was present at the moment of change. The starting point of everything. So annoying I want to kill him, yet so good I want to die.

My idol, Woo Seonrim.