SDT 81

Chapter 81 A Love Letter Sent to the Future

After they strolled along the beach, Lu Kongyun followed Yu Xiaowen back to their home in Wax Apple Alley.

Lu Kongyun grabbed Yu Xiaowen’s hand after they entered the house, and they went to the bathroom together. They washed four hands, and they dried them afterward. Then they sat on the sofa, and Lu Kongyun checked the messages on his phone.

Yu Xiaowen sat beside him, and he looked at Lu Kongyun. He stared at Lu Kongyun’s profile under the glow of the phone screen. After he watched for a while, he leaned closer, and he placed his still damp and cool hand on the bare section of Lu Kongyun’s leg below his shorts. His fingertips tapped on Lu Kongyun’s leg as if they played piano keys.

Lu Kongyun raised his eyes, and he looked toward Yu Xiaowen.

Yu Xiaowen blinked his eyes.

Lu Kongyun reached out to catch Yu Xiaowen’s hand on his own leg, but Yu Xiaowen suddenly pulled it away, so Lu Kongyun grasped at empty air.

Lu Kongyun stretched his arms to embrace Yu Xiaowen, but Yu Xiaowen jumped up from the sofa with a playful grin. Lu Kongyun lunged to grab Yu Xiaowen’s legs, yet Yu Xiaowen nimbly stepped back.

He stared Yu Xiaowen with squinted eyes, and Yu Xiaowen shaped his hands like fish swimming up. He spoke in a frivolous tone: “Little fish, little fish, do you slip away smoothly?”

“…” Lu Kongyun exhaled, and he tilted his head. He dug into his ear with a finger because this awkward line made his ear itch. Then he stood up, and he moved to hug Yu Xiaowen.

Yu Xiaowen bent with agility and slipped to Lu Kongyun’s back from one side, and then he ran toward the bedroom. He did not need to run many steps anyway because the distance was short. Lu Kongyun caught him from behind soon after, and he hoisted Yu Xiaowen by the waist. He pressed him directly onto the bed in the bedroom.

Lu Kongyun kissed Yu Xiaowen’s ears and nape, and he held Yu Xiaowen’s palm with one hand. His other hand untied the drawstring on his own beach pants.

Yu Xiaowen bought those beach pants in a dizzying style for Lu Kongyun two years earlier.

A moment later, the breaths of both men grew heavy, and they mingled together.

Yu Xiaowen called out someone else’s name in a way that shattered the mood at that moment: “Ms. Chen…”

The man on top paused, and his tone turned stern suddenly: “Who did you call?”

“…I mean yesterday,” Yu Xiaowen propped himself up a bit, and he asked casually: “I saw her call you yesterday, and you talked for a long time. Did some trouble come up? …Work-related?”

Lu Kongyun scrutinized Yu Xiaowen’s face.

Some embarrassment surfaced on Yu Xiaowen’s slightly flushed cheeks. Lu Kongyun replied: “She asked me about some matters concerning Lawyer Xia.”

“…Oh.” Yu Xiaowen seemed even more embarrassed. He licked Lu Kongyun’s lips though, and that shyness shifted flavor right away. Then he narrowed his eyes, and he leaned in to kiss again.

Lu Kongyun chuckled and he said: “You improved.”

“Hm?” Yu Xiaowen looked at him with confusion.

“That time before, you saw Ms. Chen talk to me, and you clearly cared a lot yet you pretended not to notice.” Lu Kongyun said, “Now you already know to ask on your own initiative.”

Yu Xiaowen scratched his cheek: “…Your words carry a sarcasm as thick as that damned mandarin duck hotpot.”

“I meant it as a compliment.” Lu Kongyun said.

Lu Kongyun slipped his hand inside Yu Xiaowen’s clothes as he spoke, and he mimicked Yu Xiaowen’s motions by tapping piano keys. Yu Xiaowen immediately arched his back because he could not bear it, so Lu Kongyun seized the moment and lifted him into his lap. He sat with Yu Xiaowen in his embrace, and he planted kisses on the sensitive spot below Yu Xiaowen’s collarbone.

Yu Xiaowen’s voice sounded small: “So you like it?”

Lu Kongyun pressed him close as his affirmation.

Yu Xiaowen laughed, and his features showed a delight.

Lu Kongyun lifted his head and looked at him.

“So because this weighed on your mind all along, you suddenly told me today that you refused the job in Jiang City, and you came back right away?”

Lu Kongyun caught the look of nervousness on Yu Xiaowen’s face, and he halted his motions.

After a while, he said: “Give me a mark.”

Yu Xiaowen: “…What?”

“Mark me.” Lu Kongyun licked the tip of his own canine tooth, and he conveyed his intent.

Yu Xiaowen licked the corresponding spot on his own dull little canine: “How could I mark you? Mine stays solid inside.”

“I will teach you.” Lu Kongyun said.

He raised his hand, and he removed his beach shirt so he exposed his neck completely.

Yu Xiaowen stared at that area, and he swallowed. Lu Kongyun drew him close, and guided Yu Xiaowen’s head to the gland below his jawline.

Yu Xiaowen caught the pheromone scent from the gland. His heartbeat quickened. One fingertip brushed his lower lip lightly, so he chased it on instinct. Then his lips touched the soft skin over the gland.

“Open your mouth, and suck it in.”

He obeyed without question. He would have done this step anyway even without Lu Kongyun’s guidance because he loved it, and he often performed it. No matter how strong Lu Kongyun was as an Alpha, this spot was soft and vulnerable. Yu Xiaowen savored it carefully, and he made satisfied sounds: “Mm mm. Mm mm.”

Lu Kongyun: “Open your mouth wider, and cover more area.”

Lu Kongyun: “Secure it with your teeth, and then use your whole mouth like you drink bubble milk te…”

He only uttered half that word, and then he changed course: “Suck it like you drink bubble tea.”

“It contains those huge pearls bigger than the straw that clog the straw completely. You get nothing to drink unless you suck them out.” Lu Kongyun held Yu Xiaowen’s head in place as he directed, “Put more force into it.”

“…” After he heard those words, Yu Xiaowen set aside the treat near his mouth for the moment, and he raised his head to ask: “What, do you want to carry a big strawberry like last time to my workplace and make me die of embarrassment?”

“As you wish.” Yu Xiaowen hugged Lu Kongyun’s neck, and he gnawed and sucked with vigor.

He heard the gasps beside his ear, and a nasal hum escaped as Lu Kongyun endured what might have been pain or something else: “Mm… You did well.”

The back of Lu Kongyun’s finger glided gently over Yu Xiaowen’s earlobe in praise and encouragement.

“But it lacks enough.”

Yu Xiaowen’s back softened already under the close-range control of the pheromones, and he floated with an empty mind. He rested against Lu Kongyun’s collarbone, and he stared at the purplish-red mark inside Lu Kongyun’s collar.

“…How does it lack? I already used vacuum technique with my mouth.” He said.

“Teeth.” Lu Kongyun said, “You must pierce in for it to count as a mark.”

Yu Xiaowen felt that hand press him back to the gland.

“Suck it first, and then bite down. Do it like you crack crab legs usually.”

“…Can I really do that?” Yu Xiaowen felt intuitively that an Alpha’s gland differed from an Omega’s in nerve sensitivity, so it would hurt terribly.

“You can.” Lu Kongyun said, “Hurry.”

Yu Xiaowen: “…”

He probably lost clarity and reason under the pheromones, so he actually bit down just as Lu Kongyun instructed. He felt the vein in Lu Kongyun’s neck bulge suddenly, so he released right away: “Did I bite too hard and hurt you?”

Lu Kongyun said nothing, but he pressed Yu Xiaowen down harder: “Keep going.”

Yu Xiaowen closed his eyes, and he bit again. He lacked the courage to break skin normally, but as that flesh ground gradually under his teeth and released the gland’s richest pheromone scent, he lost control over his bite strength. It awakened a beastly instinct, and when something so delicious reached his mouth, he really wanted to tear it off, devour it, and swallow it into his body.

In the instant he lost focus, he felt a grape-like burst explode and a bloody taste flooded in his mouth. Then Lu Kongyun shuddered as he exhaled. That sound jolted Yu Xiaowen alert suddenly. He raised his head, and he looked at Lu Kongyun’s face. He saw Lu Kongyun’s lips pale a bit. He glanced at the wound again, and crimson blood flowed from there.

!

An Alpha’s gland really differed completely from an Omega’s when bitten!

Yu Xiaowen’s hairs stood on end right away, and he widened his eyes in regret. He wanted to say something: “I hurt you… Mm.”

Lu Kongyun looked at the red traces on Yu Xiaowen’s mouth though, and he leaned in to lick Yu Xiaowen’s bloodstained lips.

Then he extended further into Yu Xiaowen’s mouth, and his tongue tangled with Yu Xiaowen’s.

The bloody taste spread between their lips and tongues, and it reached every corner.

“……” Yu Xiaowen was slowly pressed down onto the bed, and his expression became disordered. He smelled the pheromone scent he loved most, and inside that coolness there was now a trace of a bloody odor. That scent changed from cool to another tone, it lost its purity, and it hid temptation. That scent made Yu Xiaowen’s body under the Alpha’s control feel something different from before, and it seemed that behind his instinct that wanted to be loved, there was something else, a desire that wanted to possess.

Not only did he want to be loved by him, he also wanted to possess him.

Lu Kongyun lifted his head, and he spoke to Yu Xiaowen as he still continued the topic from before. “You improved, very good.”

Yu Xiaowen looked through the blur of his tears caused by physical reaction, and he looked at the wound on Lu Kongyun’s neck that was bleeding because of the mark he left.

Lu Kongyun said, “I like the feeling that you start to understand me.”

“……”

Yu Xiaowen turned over, and tears fell. He sat on top, and he lowered his head, feeling sullen, he carefully wanted to lick the wound clean.

….

After it ended, Yu Xiaowen held the blanket and rested for a while. When he felt better, he lifted his face from the pillow, and he wiped his eyes with his hand, and then he put his arm around Lu Kongyun’s neck, and the two of them went together to the shower to bathe.

After the shower, Lu Kongyun started to get dressed.

Yu Xiaowen wore pajamas, and he lay on the bed with his legs crossed as he watched him dress.

“Are you going home tonight?”

“Yes. I have something in the morning, and I need to get up early, and I have to go back to pack my things.” Lu Kongyun answered.

“Oh.” Yu Xiaowen’s eyes drooped down.

They had been in a relationship for some time, and Lu Kongyun sometimes stayed over at his place, and sometimes he let Yu Xiaowen stay over. But Lu Kongyun never mentioned living together. Yu Xiaowen thought that was very normal, because Lu Kongyun looked like that kind of proper-minded young man. So even though Yu Xiaowen longed to see him day and night, he never dared to bring it up.

Lu Kongyun tied the waistband of his beach pants, and he stood there without speaking. Then he turned toward Yu Xiaowen, and he said, “Think carefully about what I told you.”

“Hm?” Yu Xiaowen said, “What thing?”

“……” Lu Kongyun lowered his eyes and looked at the floor, and then he looked back at Yu Xiaowen. “If we go to Jiang City together, we need a proper relationship so we can live together.”

“……Live together?!”

Yu Xiaowen kneeled up on the bed. He originally wanted to find a way to make Lu Kongyun give up going to Jiang City, but when he heard this, he forgot everything else and only asked those last two words.

“If we go to Jiang City, will you live together with me?”

Lu Kongyun did not immediately answer that question. He only looked at Yu Xiaowen, and it seemed that he waited for Yu Xiaowen to remember and think about the word that came before this.

After a while, Yu Xiaowen’s face really started to change.

Yu Xiaowen connected what Lu Kongyun said earlier on the beach and what he said just now, and it seemed that he finally understood what Lu Kongyun meant.

His expression slowly became indescribable. He seemed stunned, and he did not know what reaction he should show, and he looked at Lu Kongyun with embarrassment.

Lu Kongyun looked at his face. It was hard to say that there was any joy mixed in, and what was clearer and more obvious was a look like hearing a story that belonged to the realm of fantasy. He looked at Lu Kongyun carefully, as if he wanted to find a switch on Lu Kongyun’s face that could wake him from a dream.

Lu Kongyun thought that today he would not get an answer.

He exhaled, and he said, “It’s too late, I have to go first.”

He walked to the doorway, and he turned back to look.

Yu Xiaowen did not even see him off from the bedroom. He only sat on the bed. Even when he heard the sound of the door outside, he did not move.

(When we reach Jiang City, let’s live together.)

(If it’s a proper relationship, they will accept it… foreign customs.)

Yu Xiaowen sat on the bed for a long time with blank eyes. He picked up his phone, and he typed slowly: Darling Xiao Yun. Did you get home?

The other side was typing.

After a while, the reply came, but it was about something completely unrelated: Inside the drawer below your wardrobe, in the place where you keep photos, there’s a sealed bag. Go look.

Yu Xiaowen pressed the towel on his head, he walked into the bedroom, and opened his wardrobe. He squatted down, and he pulled open the drawer.

There were some miscellaneous items there, and the most visible thing was a photo album. It was Yu Xiaowen’s most precious thing. It contained his old photos, from when he was a baby to his middle school years. There were also photos of him together with his parents. Later, after his parents passed away, the photos he took on his phone were never printed again, so afterward, he had no more photos.

The love letter he wrote was also pressed inside that album.

It seemed that after Lu Kongyun left, he had seen those photos. So he also saw the love letter.

When he thought of that, Yu Xiaowen opened the album right away and flipped through it. He tried hard to pretend to look from an outsider’s view and to judge whether he had been cute as a child.

He judged himself strictly, and he thought it was fine.

He thought that Lu Kongyun must also think it was fine.

He looked at those photos, and many he felt emotional about the past. He thought about what Lu Kongyun must have felt when he saw these things back then.

He kept flipping, and then his hand stopped when he looked at one slot under the plastic film that held the photos.

There was folded pink stationery there. It was the love letter he once wrote for Lu Kongyun. Ever since Yu Xiaowen put it inside the album to keep it safe, he never took it out again. It turned out that Lu Kongyun not only took it out to look, he also put it back exactly the same as before.

His chest tightened more, and it ached.

A message from Lu Kongyun arrived: Did you find it? It’s pressed inside the album.

When Yu Xiaowen saw the message, he kept turning the pages of the album, looking for the sealed bag. Very soon, he found the target right behind the love letter.

The sealed bag contained a piece of paper. It looked very ordinary.

He carefully took the sealed bag out from the plastic sleeve, and he opened it. Inside, there was indeed a sheet of paper. It was white, folded twice, pressed flat, and it had stayed in that state for a long time without changing. When he opened it, he saw some small uneven round marks on it, probably the traces left by dried water drops.

What was this?

Could it be…

Also a love letter?

He gave this white paper an identity without any basis, and his heartbeat sped up suddenly. Then he shook his head. The paper looked too casual. If Lu Kongyun had really written it, he would not have used paper like this. So Yu Xiaowen became even more curious, and he opened it carefully.

There were only a few simple words on the paper, written in handwriting he knew best.

To the Doctor

Complete the last wish, and end the blackmail relationship.

The Officer

Yu Xiaowen stared at the paper, and he froze. His mind went back to that day two years ago. The paper was still here. There was a strange feeling that grew inside his chest like soft bubbles expanding gently and wrapping around him.

Until a new message popped up on his phone: Haven’t found it yet?

He came back to himself, and he replied: Found it.

He took a photo and sent it for confirmation.

Lu Kongyun: Mm.

Lu Kongyun: I still owe you one wish. Do you remember?

Lu Kongyun: Anything is fine.

Lu Kongyun: Anything at all.

After a short pause, a new line appeared: Tell me when you decide.