CEL 33

But no matter how much he said he was prepared, the feeling of someone’s finger pushing in and breaking through below was not the kind of thing he could call pleasant.

“Ugh…”

It was uncomfortable and filthy. The long fingertip groping along his inner wall, the thumb outside lightly rubbing the tightened folds.

…Is this really right?

“Sunbae, this place is really cute. Do you know your hole keeps biting my finger?” Crazy bastard.

Hamin gave up trying to talk to someone abnormal and just squeezed his eyes shut. His face, with unfocused eyes and a foolish grin, could not be called normal even out of politeness.

In the meantime, the single finger became two, then three. The more the number increased, the more difficult it became, but he grit his teeth and endured it. Since he had decided, it was a process he had to go through at least once.

“Sunbae, I can’t hold it anymore.”

“Just put it in.”

“It feels like it’s going to tear…”

Considering Han Jaeha’s fingers were thicker than most men’s, three already matched the size of an average cock. So he thought Jaeha’s words were exaggerated and opened his eyes.

“…Did you have surgery?” Hamin’s face turned pale.

Between Jaeha’s legs, now stripped of his pants, hung something that could hardly be called a cock. It was almost the size of a water bottle, and Hamin slowly pulled his body back.

“Wait, just hold on.”

His face was drained, his eyes desperately looked around. In a small room with nowhere to run, his look was that of someone begging. It could not be helped. None of the scenarios Hamin had imagined included being split open and carried to the hospital.

If that went in, he would definitely end up in the hospital. No matter how much he paid taxes, he couldn’t call 119 for this.

While he was thinking of how to get Jaeha off him, the thick glans suddenly stuck to his hole.

“Do you know how hot your hole is?”

After all that rubbing, it was only natural that heat rose. But before Hamin could even open his mouth, the massive cockhead shoved in.

“Wai…!”

“Sunbae, I think I’m gonna cum. Relax a little.”

Only the glans had gone in, but his hole spasmed uncontrollably. Hamin gasped, his eyes wide, his mouth opening and closing without sound. The pain really felt like he was being torn apart.

“Sunbae, breathe with me, okay? You’re doing well. Can you relax just a little? It hurts me too much.”

He wanted to retort, saying even if it hurt for him it couldn’t be worse than what he felt, but reality was as Jaeha said. He was too busy breathing in obedience.

Even with his teeth clenched, tears welled at the corners of his eyes. The biggest problem was this madman staring at him with ecstatic eyes.

Why did I agree to this?

While Hamin regretted it, Jaeha was nearly losing his mind at how his glans was squeezed by Hamin’s ass.

The tears gathering in Hamin’s eyes reflected his face, and even he looked insane. He had only put the tip in, but the sensation of all his muscles being squeezed swept through his body. If he let go even slightly, he would spill right away.

He had no choice. He pretended to be calm, but in truth all his muscles had been tensed up from the start. He kept worrying if Hamin, who had never been with a man, might feel disgust or rejection at his touch. He almost lost his mind over it, but the sight of Hamin’s cock swelling put him over the edge.

Heat filled Hamin’s eyes as he stared back at him. His brows furrowed in arousal, his face flushed red, his lips trying to hold back moans.

So there was no way he could endure any longer.

Jaeha took his time kissing Hamin’s cheek and lips. He whispered in his ear, “Just a little more, okay?” and patted his chest as if to cheer him on.

Hamin, who seemed ready to curse and tell him to get lost, surprisingly softened at the tenderness.

Though his ten fingers tensed tight, he followed his words, took deep breaths, and tried to release the strength in his stomach. It was such a beautiful sight it drove him crazy.

Jaeha slowly pushed his cock in. The slow entry was painful even for him, but when he saw the sweat gathering on Hamin’s forehead, he forgot the hardship. His head was filled only with how unbearably pretty Seo Hamin looked.

And finally, when his cock filled Hamin completely, a faint sigh slipped from both their mouths at the same time.

“…You need to pay double taxes.”

“I’ll think about it.”

Though he joked, Jaeha was sweating cold and slowly moved his hips. With no time to adjust, the stretched hole widened and clenched again.

Hamin covered his eyes with trembling hands. His breath kept running short, his fingertips cold. The feeling of being filled inside was unpleasant and upsetting, yet a ticklish sensation came and went.

“Show me your face. Why are you covering it?”

“Hhh.”

His escape did not last long. Jaeha caught both his hands and pinned them. Along with his unhappy muttering, Jaeha quickened his thrusts.

The way he stabbed around without skill was closer to violence, but the heat filling his insides made Hamin think he would melt.

“Hahh…!”

Hamin’s eyes went wide, saliva spilling from his open mouth. His toes curled, his head snapped back.

Startled, Jaeha looked down at him trembling. His face lost its earlier playfulness and turned serious. He pulled his hips back slightly, then pushed in shallowly.

“Ah!”

It was the same reaction as before.

A smile appeared on Jaeha’s once blank face. It was a clear change, calm yet vivid.

His cool eyes curved, the corners of his lips rising high, and Hamin panted as he watched.

It was common knowledge that men had prostates, and touching there caused sexual pleasure. So it was nothing shameful, nothing to be embarrassed about, but Jaeha’s expression made Hamin feel humiliated.

His face turned red up to his neck, his lips trembled. He wanted to hide anywhere right away.

“Stop, I want to stop.”

Seeing Hamin fluster like never before, Jaeha let out a low laugh.

“No, Sunbae.”

“Hhh, ah…”

“Once we start, we have to finish.”

“Hhh.”

“You like rules and principles, don’t you?”

Behind his bright smile, it felt like a demon was peeking out. Just as Hamin opened his lips to argue, Han Jaeha thrust his hips.

“Ah, ugh!”

“Sunbae, it feels good. It feels so good. It’s like my cock is melting, yeah? What if it melts inside?”

“Hurts… ah!”

“It must hurt, right? Then will you nurse me? I’d like it if you even blew on it. No, even if it doesn’t hurt, can’t you blow on it? Just imagining it turns me on.”

Hamin, who normally would have argued back at every line, could only moan without answering. So Jaeha babbled nonsense and prayers. In truth, not everything he said was nonsense. It really did feel like his cock might melt away.

The way his stomach convulsed whenever he thrust, the way tears streamed uncontrollably yet his eyes lifted with a spiteful glare, all of it was insanely lovely. From the start, it was Seo Hamin’s fault for being like this.

His inner wall clung so tight to his cock it sent shivers through his body and mind. When he slammed down hard, the arms wrapped around his neck tightened. He felt like even if he died strangled like this, he wouldn’t mind.

“St, stop a little…!” Hamin muttered through clenched teeth.

Han Jaeha was fucking him violently, shoving his cock in as if he wanted to crush his guts. The ticklish or strange feeling had long faded. Each time he drove his cock in with all his strength, flashes kept sparking before his eyes.

Jaeha stirred his insides, pierced his belly, ground his fragile inner wall. And yet, feeling good from it made him feel crazy. Now, even without hitting his peak, his waist clenched and his cock tensed. Jaeha’s face, looking enraptured as if seeing the rarest subject on earth, only heightened the stimulation.

While he groaned in a mess, his sweat-drenched body came into view. It was a well-built, muscular body.

It was ridiculous to still feel resistance at being with a man, but it was also strange to find the body attractive.

Was Jaeha thinking the same thing?

His eyes traced the wet body. Each time their gazes met, his hole twitched, answering without words.

Jaeha glanced down at his cock, swollen hard as if it had never softened, and gripped it roughly with one hand. No words were exchanged, but both knew what it meant.

Hamin poured all his strength into holding back the moans rising in his throat. That was all he could do. It took every bit of his will, leaving him no space to read the unfamiliar feelings in Jaeha’s eyes.

“Sunbae, Sunbae…”

Seo Hamin’s expression of pleasure, his sobbing voice, his helpless movements, it all drove him mad.

He kept stroking his cock in his hand. Unable to endure the stimulation, Hamin opened his mouth and froze his breath. His whole body tightened and trembled. His inner wall squeezed hard, his black eyes filled with pleasure. In that cramped bliss, Jaeha could not hold back either and spilled his semen.

He lifted his trembling hand and cupped Hamin’s cheek. The number of his eyelashes, the droplets hanging on the corner of his eyes, his ragged breath, he didn’t want to miss any of it.

Even while cumming, he was swept up in the strange urge to cum again. Though he was already inside, he wanted to go deeper, though he was already pressed close, he wanted to be closer still. It was an irrational impulse.

As his cock gradually shrank after release, Hamin’s hole twitched as if it was adjusting. Jaeha brushed back Hamin’s sweat-soaked bangs.

It felt like a space that had always been empty was now filled, it was a strange feeling.

Hamin had long since fallen into deep sleep, but Jaeha did not stop the hand patting his chest. More exactly, it was closer to something he could not stop.

His hand, moving in steady rhythm, froze in the air with a bit of force. A faint frown appeared on the face that had been breathing peacefully in sleep.

Jaeha held back his laugh and laid his hand back on his chest.

You sleep like a baby.

Feeling ‎a little moved, Jaeha looked at Hamin accepting his touch. Even the dried tear marks at the corners of his eyes, the swollen eyelids, and the wrinkle lines left between his brows from frowning too much looked lovely to him. He felt he was not normal.

After being with Hamin, Jaeha accepted his feelings completely. Thinking back, Seo Hamin had been different from the start.

He had not wanted to act in front of him. Even while thinking it gave him chills, he still thought his face looked pretty. Even when he misunderstood him, disappointment came first rather than disgust. It was childish to say, but maybe this was what people called love at first sight.

Or maybe if not their first meeting, then it was that day.

The day when only he shone alone in the mock trial for a simple college assignment.

He closed his eyes, recalling a past that felt far away, like a distant memory.

Seo Hamin was different from him. Unlike himself, who had lived all his life as someone’s puppet, Hamin ran endlessly forward as if he already knew the answer. His eyes looked like those of someone who knew nothing of failure, setback, or giving up.

He always made him act out of his own will. No one else had ever done that, only this strange law student.

So maybe, at least once in life, shouldn’t I be allowed to do as I want?

He kissed the small wrinkles between his brows. The skin of his lips felt soft.

“Seo Hamin, what should I do?” The shell had cracked.

What was inside shattered and revealed, it was something he had never seen before either.

“I don’t think I can let you go now.” He wanted to stay beside it.

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He forced his eyes open that refused to lift. His whole body ached as if someone had trampled him in his sleep.

He reached out and checked the time. Fortunately, there was still some time left. He did not know if he should be proud of himself for waking up on time after being worn out all night, or if he should call himself stupid for putting everything else aside and doing this.

Hamin was about to unlock the screen out of habit when he paused at a strange icon on the background.

It was a pink lock with a heart drawn on it, and it was clearly not normal.

He pressed the button like he was pulled in. Looking at the two hearts stuck together in the middle of the map near his house, he sighed. The culprit was obvious.

It was certain that Han Jaeha… was a little crazy.

Whether Jaeha thought Hamin would not see it, or thought it did not matter even if he saw it, either way, the location tracking app placed right in the middle of the wallpaper made him nervous. Both possibilities were a problem.

Hamin wondered if he should scold him for installing something like this on someone else’s phone, or if he should teach him how to commit a perfect crime. While he was thinking, Han Jaeha, who had been sleeping quietly, suddenly furrowed his brow.

“What are you frowning for?”

Hamin whispered and pressed down on the brow that had popped up. With a groan, the huge body drew close. Hamin ended up suddenly hugged tight and quietly put his arms around him.

Han Jaeha smelled like summer. Not musty or sticky, but like a cool breeze.

Mixed in with that, there was a faint smell of paint or paper that had a way of putting people at ease.

It was amazing how a natural scent from a person, not some artificial freshness poured over him, could make someone this relaxed.

Even though they had ended up in bed last night without planning it, Hamin still did not know how he should treat Han Jaeha.

Everything was unfamiliar, strange, and confusing. He could not figure it out.

In the end, Hamin chose to avoid the uncomfortable situation since he could not find an answer.

“Get up, I need to wash.”

“…Just a little more.”

It seemed he really had woken up earlier. Hamin poked his side to urge him to get up, but instead of letting go, the arms holding him only tightened.

“And installing an app like that secretly is a crime.”

At those words, the tightly closed light brown eyes opened. Being met with a look he could not read, Hamin saw Jaeha’s cheeks soon turn red as he muttered.

“Now that I think about it, sunbae sounds kind of sexy when you say things like that.”

Faced with that absurd reply, Hamin chose to shut his eyes.

For a moment he thought, maybe taking in this crazy guy was his way of contributing to world peace.