CTL 51

You’re the one who chose this.

You’re the one who held onto me again, so, so it’s too late now.

Yoongeon embraced Seohwi, feeling as if his mind had been turned completely to mush. When he hugged him with all his strength, Seohwi couldn’t move a muscle, as if he were tightly bound. He looked like he was trapped by sturdy tree roots, but Yoongeon had no intention of letting him go.

He caught his breath for a long while, still holding Seohwi, before opening his eyes. He felt so terrible that in that short moment, a blood vessel in his eye had burst. It had been far too long since he had felt this way.

“Ugh…”

Even as he gasped for breath, Seohwi didn’t ask him to let go, or to hold him a little more gently. He just remained quietly in his arms, as if he understood everything. As if he were immensely pleased by Yoongeon’s obsession. That was so incredibly satisfying that Yoongeon, without realizing it, began breathing hard.

“Heok…. …Heok…”

“…Yoongeon?”

Was it because he had finally found something he had lost for so long? He suddenly started hyperventilating. In an instant, a cold sweat broke out, and his heart began to beat far too quickly.

“Yoongeon, wait a moment.”

“Heok, hoo… Heok…”

“Let go for a second.”

“…Why?”

“What?”

“You, hoo… cough… can’t go now.”

“…”

“You’re mine. I won’t let go…”

“I know, Yoongeon. I know, so just let go for a bit.”

Yoongeon, still unable to breathe properly, held onto him and refused to let go.

“Yoongeon, I told you I’m not going anywhere.”

“You can’t go…. You can’t.”

“I’m not trying to go anywhere… It’s just that you’re breathing strangely right now.”

Seohwi tried to somehow soothe him, but Yoongeon was being stubborn. Even as his body lost strength and he collapsed to the floor, he did not let go of Seohwi. Because of that, Seohwi ended up sinking to the floor with him, still in his embrace.

“Heok…. …Heok…”

Yoongeon gasped for breath, but he did not release the hand that held Seohwi so tightly. At his terribly persistent state, a deep sigh was heard from above his head.

“Why, …eum.”

It was just when he was about to ask why, to demand if he was already sick of him for not letting go. The moment the clench-jawed Yoongeon raised his head, Seohwi pressed his own lips to his and gave him a light kiss. Surprised by the sudden kiss, Yoongeon stared at him blankly, and Seohwi caressed his cheek, observing him.

“I’m not going anywhere.”

“…”

“You don’t need to be anxious.”

One might have been fed up with him for holding on so desperately and not letting go, but Seohwi showed no sign of it, speaking only nonchalantly.

“Still, we can’t stay here forever.”

“…”

Only then did Yoongeon remember that they were inside a fire exit stairwell. He had lost his mind for a moment and hadn’t even known where he was.

“Hoo…”

He couldn’t let others see him in such a broken state, in a place like this. Yoongeon, though trembling, got to his feet. Seohwi tried to help, but Yoongeon just pushed him firmly away. Standing up was his own responsibility, not something Seohwi, who stood beside him, should have to handle.

After a few deep breaths, he composed his expression and opened the door. The flood of light instantly brought his sense of reality back.

“Executive Director!”

“Oppa!”

When they returned to the office, the employees who had been sitting and working jumped to their feet and approached Yoongeon. Yebin must have been quite worried, because she forgot they were at the company and clung to his arm without a second thought.

“Oppa, look at your face.”

He was about to say he was fine, but his eyes met Yebin’s, which were welling with tears, and he couldn’t bring himself to treat it as nothing.

“Why did you just stand there and take that?”

“…I understand. I won’t do it again.”

“Don’t let yourself be taken advantage of.”

“I told you, I get it.”

Yebin, who had always been passive and timid about matters concerning their father, spoke firmly. Yoongeon looked at this Yebin with a new sense of wonder. He didn’t know what had caused it, but it seemed Yebin had changed a little too.

“Mr. Seohwi. Have you calmed down now?”

Chief Ha, who was standing next to them, asked Seohwi, who was behind Yoongeon. When he turned around, Seohwi, who was back to his usual self, nodded.

“I’ve caused unnecessary worry. I’m sorry, everyone. I’ve soothed him well, so Mr. Yoon Seohwi will be fine. Secretary Lim.”

Yoongeon said, looking around at everyone, then called to Secretary Lim, who was standing in a corner. He told him to finish his work and go home, then grabbed Seohwi and headed outside. When Secretary Lim followed them out and asked where they were going, he replied that they were going home, which made him tilt his head.

“Home? What are you going to do at home? You said you would confirm our compilation of rebuttal materials before you left…”

“I don’t know.”

“Yes…?”

It was true. He didn’t know what he would do when he got home, but right now, all he could think about was that he had to be alone with Seohwi, away from other people.

“My, this is sudden for someone who isn’t usually like this…? Yes, well… I understand. Please go on in.”

Surprisingly, Secretary Lim backed down obediently without much of a response. Without even a glance at him, Yoongeon tightly gripped Seohwi’s wrist. Even as he was led along, Seohwi didn’t even ask where they were going.

✧ ✧ ✧

Bang—!

He couldn’t remember how he’d managed to drive and get home. But that wasn’t what was important right now. As soon as they entered the entryway, Yoongeon shoved Seohwi violently and tore at the clothes he was wearing.

“Ut…!”

He didn’t spare a glance for the flustered Seohwi, who was trying to say, “Wait,” and just stripped him. Seohwi must not have expected this to happen without even properly entering the house, because he uncharacteristically glanced around in a hurry.

“Here, ugh, ut, this is in front of the elevator. Yoongeon, ah…!”

It was a place where any of the management staff could easily walk in, but Yoongeon was already out of his mind. He had already used up almost all of his patience just holding back until now. He stripped off all of Seohwi’s clothes, down to his underwear, then grabbed his penis and pumped it while biting Seohwi’s nape with his teeth.

“Hah, ugh, eu, wait, Yoongeon.”

He panted and said they had to go inside, but far from listening, Yoongeon just gnawed and chewed on his nape and earlobe. Seohwi let out a pained moan, but Yoongeon didn’t care, and Seohwi, for his part, didn’t ask him to be gentle.

“Ah… hoo…”

As Yoongeon desperately clung to him, leaving his marks, the flinching Seohwi slightly pulled down Yoongeon’s pants and underwear. Then, the penis that had been standing erect and making its presence known since he had pounced on him sprang out. While Yoongeon bit his chest, Seohwi grabbed Yoongeon’s penis and began to stroke them both together.

“Ah, haah… ah…!”

When Seohwi’s large hand started stroking his penis, the hard thing soon began to spit out a clear fluid. Yoongeon squeezed his eyes shut and trembled, then clenched his teeth and began to thrust his hips.

Each time he slammed his erect penis into the tight hole Seohwi had made, Yoongeon became overly excited and panted.

‘Even if you push me away, I won’t be pushed away anymore.’

What that affirmation, which Seohwi had uttered himself, meant to Yoongeon, he would probably never know, not even at the very last moment.

‘Do as you please.’

Do as I please? Even if he couldn’t remember the past, he should have known never to say such a thing after having experienced Yoongeon, but Seohwi had fearlessly spouted that nonsense, and,

‘Yes, Yoongeon. I’ll give it to you, so take it.’

He had finally said something that could never be taken back. He had even smiled, not knowing that Yoongeon’s eyes were going completely wild.

“Ugh, hoo… haah, ah…!”

Yoongeon forgot that he had been stroking his penis and, bracing his hands on the wall, thrust his hips powerfully. The pleasure was so intense it felt like his mind was turning into complete sludge. He knew it was an over-the-top reaction for a mere act that wasn’t even sex, but today, neither his body nor his mind was listening to him.

Excitement flowed from head to toe without stopping. It was to the point that his entire body tingled, as if electricity were running through it. As he moved his hips with a thrusting sound, Seohwi let out a small moan and lightly bit his nape.

“Ut…!”

He was so out of it that he could only think about wanting to kiss him but couldn’t even do it. Yoongeon tilted his head far back and stopped his hip movements for a moment.

“Ah…”

The moment Yoongeon, who had been letting out pained noises, finally lowered his head and pressed his lips to Seohwi’s, Seohwi obediently parted his lips and received him. As they tangled their tongues and shared breath, Yoongeon grabbed his penis and gave it one long stroke, and Seohwi also reached his climax, his body trembling.

“Yoongeon, haah…. First, let’s wash up…”

“…Ah.”

Yoongeon had driven him so fiercely that Seohwi was only now able to say a proper sentence. Finally looking around, Yoongeon realized he hadn’t even made it to the living room and clicked his tongue softly. To do it in the entryway, he must have really lost his mind.

He looked at Seohwi’s body, which had become a mess in that short time. He had bitten him so much that his white skin was barely visible. There were bite marks here and there, and he could also see parts that had turned red from being held too tightly.

“Alright.”

“Okay… What are you doing?”

It was an embarrassing thing to say after the fact, but Yoongeon, having said they should at least wash up, lifted Seohwi into his arms before he could answer. As he was lifted like a precious child, Seohwi instinctively wrapped his arms around his neck and realized his state too late, but Yoongeon had no intention of letting him walk on his own. If he let him walk on his own, he might run away from him.

He set him down in the bathroom and slowly took off his clothes. Unlike Seohwi, who was already naked, Yoongeon was perfectly dressed except for his slightly disheveled pants, so it took a little time to undress. He took off his jacket and vest, and when he got angry trying to unbutton his overly-buttoned shirt, he just ripped it open, making Seohwi let out a hollow laugh as if it were absurd.

“Are you going to rip them all off?”

“There’s no reason I can’t.”

Yoongeon answered nonchalantly as he pulled down his pants and underwear and turned on the faucet. Thanks to that, Seohwi, who was about to say something, ended up getting water in his mouth and coughing.

“Hurry and wash up. If you don’t want to get it in the middle of showering.”

It meant that since the situation was urgent, he wouldn’t give him time for useless talk. Seohwi, whose eyes were red from getting water up his nose, glared at him, but realizing that Yoongeon’s demeanor was unusual, he didn’t argue further and washed his body.

While watching Seohwi wash, Yoongeon also began to wash himself. Even in this situation, he had agreed to let him wash first since he asked, but honestly, if he had his way, he would have thrown the shower and everything else aside and just pinned him down. But he was holding back, worried that Seohwi might really get tired of him if he did that.