IOB Ch 28

Woo Seonrim lowered his eyes as if lost in thought and then swallowed dryly. The bobbing of his Adam’s apple was unusually clear to my eyes. His face was delicate, but his Adam’s apple was surprisingly prominent. So were the veins running from the back of his hand to his forearm. Before I knew it, my eyes were tracing the lines of Woo Seonrim’s body.

And a sentence instinctively flashed through my mind.

Ah, I want to kiss him.

I wanted to jump up, grab Woo Seonrim by the collar, and pull him towards me. It was funny that this thought came to me so intensely today of all days. Just a few hours ago, I had seen President Choi’s corpse. On the first day of my own father’s funeral, wearing mourning clothes, I was feeling lust.

The only sound around was the noise of passing cars. In the middle of a street where not a single note of music could be heard. Sitting on a shabby, old convenience store chair, I was desiring Woo Seonrim. Looking into the eyes of the person I liked, I was lost in the thought of wanting our bare skin to touch. Just like other ordinary people.

Like someone who knew how to love in an ordinary way.

Suddenly, my gaze fell on Woo Seonrim’s hand resting in the middle of the table. I hesitated for a moment, then lightly took hold of the back of his hand. And with my fingertips, I gently scratched the clearly protruding veins. It was an unconscious action. I didn’t have any particular intention of stimulating him, but Woo Seonrim stared at me silently.

“……”

“……”

The air around us felt heavy. I swallowed dryly and recalled a few months ago. When I first invited Woo Seonrim to my house, I remembered his gesture of lightly scratching the back of my hand. Suddenly, a current of electricity flowed through my entire body. The skin where I was touching Woo Seonrim tingled.

“Director-nim.”

Woo Seonrim called me in a low, heavy voice. Fuck, my lower abdomen tightened and my throat went dry.

“……Hurry up and eat your sandwich. When you’re done, let’s go to the hotel.”

“……”

“You eat so damn slow.”

At that moment, Woo Seonrim gobbled up the rest of his sandwich in one bite.

“I’m done.”

So he was capable of swallowing food that quickly. It was the first time I knew. Scrape, Woo Seonrim shot up from his chair and looked down at me.

“Let’s go.”

My ears grew hot at Woo Seonrim’s voice, which was lower than usual.

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“Summer’s all gone. It’s not too hot walking at night.”

“I know.”

“Yeah.”

“The weather is nice.”

“It is.”

We were having conversations like this even in the elevator. On the surface, it seemed perfectly normal, but occasionally there would be a subtle pause in our speech, and the air surrounding us felt like it was solidifying.

Then, as soon as we opened the hotel room door, as if by prior agreement, we stopped talking and our lips crashed together. I clung to Woo Seonrim frantically. Thud! Pushed by Woo Seonrim, my back and the back of my head hit the wall. We tangled our tongues and staggered inside, entwined.

It took a long time to reach the bed like that. Woo Seonrim pushed me forcefully, and I collapsed without resistance. His long body immediately climbed on top of me. The kiss had not stopped even once until then. The corners of my wide-open mouth tingled, and the sensation at the tip of my tongue grew dull.

My whole body is hot. My penis had been swollen for a long time. At some point, Woo Seonrim had taken off my outer clothes. The jacket, stained with the scent of incense from the wake, falls to the floor. For a moment, the scent that brushed past my nose brought back the scene of the wake in my mind. This wasn’t why I got the hotel room today, but how did it come to this.

The area where my center met Woo Seonrim’s throbbed. I had lost all strength in my body a long time ago. It’s hard to even move a finger. Come to think of it, I was still on an empty stomach. What if I faint in the middle of this? Besides, they would be looking for me at the wake. Or maybe not. Since I showed them a psycho-like side of me and ran out, maybe no one will care about me…….

“Heuu……”

As if he noticed that I was momentarily lost in thought, Woo Seonrim immediately grabbed my hair and pushed his tongue deeper.

Rustle, the crisp sheet crinkled as I twisted my body. The messy sound of saliva mixing, sighs and shallow moans escaping through clenched teeth. For a long time, these were the only sounds that filled this space.

After mixing our tongues until the sensation in our lips was on the verge of paralysis, we briefly pulled apart. I desperately gasped and panted for breath.

Even in this situation, Woo Seonrim breathed calmly and looked down at me intently. My eyes caught Woo Seonrim’s lips, swollen and wet with saliva. His red lips slowly parted, and a heavy voice leaked out.

“You… like me, Director-nim.”

It wasn’t a question, but a statement defining my feelings. I let out a hollow laugh.

“Just making assumptions about someone else’s feelings as you please… eut.”

Squeeze, Woo Seonrim pushed his pelvis forward, pressing our groins together. It’s hot. Even through the fabric, I could clearly feel Woo Seonrim’s.

“You were the one who seduced me first today, Director-nim.”

I felt a pang of guilt and quickly averted my gaze.

“Hey, when did I……”

After having kissed so ravenously until now, a belated sense of embarrassment washed over me, and I feigned ignorance. I know that I always cowardly evade and act proud. The reason I keep doing this, even though I know, is because Woo Seonrim accepts my temper without batting an eye.

They say even a straw sandal has its matching pair. No matter what words I shot at him, he remained unfazed. Even now, with an expression that said he had fully expected me to deny it, he glanced at the desk clock and said.

“Approximately 43 minutes ago from now, you tickled the back of my hand in front of the convenience store, Director-nim.”

“So, what.”

“It would be good to establish it as our own signal. From now on, if one of us scratches the other’s hand, we do it.”

“What, what do we do……”

At some point, Woo Seonrim’s hand was fumbling over my center, trying to unbuckle my belt.

“What else. Naughty things.”

I felt like I was about to hiccup.

“It might be familiar to you, Director-nim, but it’s my first time. You have to give me a clear signal. It would be a disaster if I misunderstood and passed it over like a fool.”

“It’s not a disaster……”

I muttered, slurring my words. A corner of my chest felt a pang of guilt. Woo Seonrim still didn’t know that I was a virgin. I had originally intended to hide it for my entire life, but it felt subtly uncomfortable to keep lying. Unexpectedly, we had now become a special, well, something like that, kind of relationship.

If he knew that it was my first time too, Woo Seonrim would surely be happy. He would probably spout a lot of embarrassing things about destiny and whatnot. Fuck. Should I tell him, or not…….

While I was agonizing between embarrassment and conscience, Woo Seonrim unbuckled my belt quite skillfully. And then he was about to unzip my fly right away, so I reflexively grabbed Woo Seonrim’s shoulder. I needed some time to prepare myself mentally.

“Why?”

Woo Seonrim raised his eyes slightly. I rolled my eyes and frantically thought of an excuse.

“……I want to take a shower.”

That bastard Woo Seonrim wouldn’t know in his wildest dreams, but I have a lot on my mind. Whether to go all the way today or not is one of the things giving me a headache. I had been agonizing over it fiercely since we were at the convenience store.

If I were to have my first time, it felt like it had to be today, not any other day. That’s just how my heart felt. Since I’m losing my virginity, I want the day to be special. But it would be hard to choose a more special day in the future than the day President Choi died.

However, I can’t definitively decide to offer my ass to Woo Seonrim today. I have seen Woo Seonrim’s penis several times already. It’s not so easy to make up my mind to put that thing inside me. It’s not because I’m a scared virgin, but anyone would shrink in front of Woo Seonrim’s cock.

Woo Seonrim tilted his head and looked at me with a puzzled expression. I felt my whole body flush red and said.

“You, you shower too.”

“Director-nim, you’re acting a bit strange today.”

That perceptive bastard. With a businessman’s quick thinking, I blurted out an excuse.

“It’s the day my dad kicked the bucket, it would be strange to be perfectly fine.”

“That’s true, but… is it okay to kiss again after we shower and come out?”

“It’s not like you’re the type to not do it just because I tell you not to.”

I pushed Woo Seonrim away and sat up.

“I’m going to shower first.”

Then, I went into the bathroom as if I were running away. It must have been a strange sight. I could feel Woo Seonrim’s bewildered gaze following my back.

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Woo Seonrim, who came out after showering after me, spoke in a bewildered voice.

“……Director-nim, have you been drinking?”

Woo Seonrim appeared chastely, wearing only a robe and shaking out his wet hair, and for a moment, I almost spat out the wine I was holding in my mouth. That bastard is now determined to win with his face…….

I needlessly tightened my shower robe and swallowed the rest of the alcohol. After showering and thinking about it again, I thought that no matter how much of a patricidal son I was, it was a bit much to lose my virginity while my own father’s funeral was in progress. But then, an unfounded confidence and desire would suddenly surge up. Did that crazy old man have sex considering my circumstances?

My mind was in constant turmoil, so I reached for alcohol. The problem was that I was on an empty stomach. Even though I had only had a few sips, the effect of the alcohol spread through my body, and my temperature rose. The fact that my vision was getting dizzy was a bonus.

I put the wine glass down on the bedside table and slowly lay down. Lying straight on the bed with my robe neatly arranged felt strange. It was as if I had become a new groom piously awaiting his first night…….

Woo Seonrim walked over with heavy steps and sat down next to me, saying.

“How could you drink on an empty stomach.”

“……Fuck, I’m dizzy.”

“Should I ask them to bring up something simple to eat?”

“Actually, I already ordered something.”

Even though there were nuts and dried fruit that came with the wine right in front of me, I was in such a hurry that I poured alcohol down my throat first. Woo Seonrim let out a small sigh, picked up a dried strawberry, and brought it to my mouth. I opened my lips without realizing it and accepted it.

Next, a nut entered my mouth. Woo Seonrim seemed to have taken a liking to feeding me snacks one by one. He even tilted his head and intently observed me chewing on a dried orange for a long time.

“If I kiss you now, will it taste like oranges?”

I chewed the food in my mouth thoroughly before swallowing and answering.

“Why ask? You’re going to do it anyway.”

“Would you like anything else to eat?”

“I’m full.”

“……Director-nim, are you sick somewhere?”

“I don’t know. Just kiss me.”

My current state, close to an empty stomach, was actually perfect for working out. And sex is basically a workout. You use your body a lot, you sweat…….

Woo Seonrim tilted his head but climbed on top of me. A drop of water fell from his damp hair onto my cheek. When I lowered my gaze, I saw the bulging part of his robe. That bastard came out of the bathroom all hard, too. It was a relief that I wasn’t the only one like this.

The kiss that followed tasted of wine and oranges. I was disoriented because of the sudden drunkenness. I moved my body as instinct led me. Then, when I came to my senses, we were both naked. The robes were lying forlornly on the floor next to the bed.

Woo Seonrim was touching my chest and my penis at the same time.

“Heuk, ha……!”

My hips trembled as his hard fingertips crushed the center of my nipple. The sheet where it touched the head of my penis was already soaked with precum.

Woo Seonrim had only touched my chest and my front, but even my behind was already aching. I was screwed. It was the result of being developed by Woo Seonrim every few days. In truth, he hadn’t put his cock in yet, but my ass had already gotten used to the stimulation.

“Shit……”

For some reason, I felt it was unfair, so I deliberately grabbed Woo Seonrim’s penis hard. The hard shaft squirmed in my palm. It was good to see Woo Seonrim’s brow furrow slightly. This is the advantage of lying on our sides facing each other. I can see Woo Seonrim’s face well.

Woo Seonrim’s hand, which had been fondling my chest, slid to my back. It traced each vertebra down until it reached the crack of my ass. His fingers, wet with my precum, delved between my buttocks.

I bit my lip to hold back a moan. We hadn’t even done anything, but my insides were aching like crazy. Woo Seonrim pushed one of his fingers halfway in and then said.

“Ah. But I don’t have any condoms today.”

“……What? Go buy some.”

“I cut my nails yesterday, so I think it will be fine. But just in case you get hurt, I’ll use my mouth.”

My mouth… at that word, I felt both relief and disappointment at the same time. In the end, we wouldn’t use my behind today and would just end up jerking each other off. It was a relief that I no longer had to agonize over whether to go all the way, but my lower abdomen ached as if protesting its disappointment.

Fuck. This is why brainwashing is scary. I had finally reached the point where I myself desired Woo Seonrim’s cock……. I had fallen for his sweet whispers, fondling my behind every now and then, saying he would make me feel good. It didn’t seem like it would feel particularly good to put that huge thing in, but to think I was now in a position of looking forward to it.

I was in the middle of falling into an absurd self-loathing. Woo Seonrim’s lips headed for a completely wrong place. When he said he’d use his mouth, I naturally thought he’d suck my cock as usual…….

“Wh, what?”

Suddenly, he flipped my body over and buried his face between my buttocks. No way……. My fears soon became reality. The tip of Woo Seonrim’s tongue touched my hole. At that moment, it felt like a jolt of electricity ran through the sensitive skin. My pelvis and hips reflexively jerked.

“Th, cra, crazy?”

What is he doing right now? That bastard Woo Seonrim is not normal. With my face buried in the sheet, I was stunned for a moment before I started to struggle belatedly.

“Hey, you’re crazy… eut!”

Squeeze, Woo Seonrim pressed down hard on the middle of my lower back with his palm. My upper body was stuck to the bed. The area around my ribs, which were being pressed down, ached. That perverted bastard is so damn strong……. I was unable to move an inch and despaired. I was out of my mind from the completely unexpected act.

Lick, slurp, all my nerves were focused on the wet tongue licking my behind. This was clearly an act meant to torment me. There’s no way he’s doing this… perverted, dog-like act for my pleasure. Of course, my hole tingled all the way to the inside every time his tongue brushed against it, but the body often betrays the mind.

“Heung, eu……”

My eyes filled with moisture. It felt like my waist was melting from the sticky tongue play. Does it even make sense to lick someone’s ass? My body, feeling pleasure in defiance of my common sense, was despairing. Seeing myself getting excited in a situation like this, I fell into self-pity, thinking that I had been developed by Woo Seonrim and had become the pervert of all perverts.

“St, stop it… Ah!”

Woo Seonrim didn’t listen to a word I said. On the contrary, he sharpened the tip of his tongue even more, as if he was about to push it all the way into my hole. This can’t be happening. I lay on the bed today with a fluttering heart, wondering whether to go all the way or not. This pervert bastard has betrayed my innocence…….

Out of a sense of injustice, I flailed my arms with all my might and beat the bedsheets. The tongue that had been diligently licking my behind paused for a moment. I struggled to turn my head back and glared at Woo Seonrim.

“F, uck. I told you to stop……”

Only then did Woo Seonrim slowly pull his mouth away. My behind, covered in saliva, came into contact with the air, and a light shiver ran through me. I instinctively shrank my neck and held back a moan.

Woo Seonrim tilted his head and said.

“You don’t like it? You look like you’re feeling good.”

“Th, this kind of crazy act, huh? You crazy bastard, can’t you read the room?”

“But we don’t have any condoms. What if you get a scratch inside if I just use my bare hands.”

“So you stick your tongue, there, in… it? Are you a dog?”

“You’ll get used to it. You felt reluctant about my fingers at first too, but it ended up being fine, didn’t it.”

I indiscriminately grabbed a nearby pillow and threw it at Woo Seonrim. Woo Seonrim dodged the sudden attack with an all-too-leisurely movement. That made me even more furious.

“You seem to be a very shy person, Director-nim. I’m the one who’s the first timer, after all.”

“F, fuck……”

My hands were trembling. I was pissed off that Woo Seonrim was suddenly treating me like an experienced person and bossing me around. Although I know in my head that this is a disaster I brought upon myself. I’m already frustrated to death about getting fucked from behind when I haven’t even lost my front virginity. What, is he saying I should be able to handle this kind of perverted, slutty act with skill? It took me a long time just to get used to kissing.

Suddenly, my hot-headed temper flared up, and blood rushed to my head. Well, it was a familiar sensation. Losing my reason like that, throwing a tantrum, and saying things I shouldn’t have—it was a fucking moment I had experienced countless times before. In other words, I was acting just like Choi Yisak normally would.

“Me too……”

“What?”

“It’s my first time, you son of a bitch……”

I muttered, trembling. Woo Seonrim heard me and just twisted one eye. It was a reaction as if to say, what kind of bullshit are you talking about.

“It’s my first time too! Fuck… fuck……!”

Now I grabbed whatever pillows and cushions I could get my hands on and threw them all at Woo Seonrim. Woo Seonrim, who had been dodging them well at first, was now standing still even after being hit squarely in the face with a pillow. Only when I had nothing left to throw did Woo Seonrim ask back in a dazed voice.

“What? What did you say?”

“Are your ears blocked?”

“Uh……”

“I’ve been lying to you until now. I’ve never even done it with a woman, let alone a man. You, you son of a bitch… treating me like some old, worn-out person.”

I was the one who had led him to see me that way, but in emotional situations, people tend to become self-centered and throw logic out the window.

“It was a lie? ……Why?”

Woo Seonrim still had a look of disbelief on his face. Fuck, do I look that much like a slut? This is also annoying for no reason. Who’s calling who a slut? Of course, he never used the word slut.

I picked up a pillow that was rolling on the floor and hit Woo Seonrim with it. It was truly a full-force swing. But Woo Seonrim didn’t stop me even as his hair got messy and his face was shaken from side to side. That quiet reaction pissed me off again, and I swung my arm and shouted.

“Fuck, why do you think I lied! It’s because you’re a perverted bastard who gets turned on by virgins.”

“……”

“If you knew it was my first time. Huh? You would have rushed at me in a heat without thinking. It’s obvious, you bastard!”

“……”

“I did it because I wanted to avoid a crazy person. What. Try to deny it.”

Even as I fiercely accused him and hit him with a pillow, Woo Seonrim never defended himself. In the end, it was me, the one throwing a tantrum, who got tired and gave up first.

“You, son of a biiiitch……”

I spewed out angry curses and threw the pillow on the floor. I was trying to calm my ragged breathing when Woo Seonrim, who had been kneeling silently like a statue the whole time, finally opened his mouth.

“……Director-nim.”

The low, reverberating voice was unusual. I looked at Woo Seonrim while collapsed on the bed.

“That’s right. I… I think I’m a pervert. I’m so excited, what should I do.”

“What do you mean, what should you……”

I was about to criticize Woo Seonrim again when I noticed something and my mouth snapped shut. I could see a drop of semen forming on the head of Woo Seonrim’s penis.

“I kind of came a little.”

That crazy bastard had ejaculated just from hearing that I was a virgin. And what’s more, it was while he was being beaten with a pillow. Woo Seonrim’s penis was already erect again, and it wasn’t obvious that he had just ejaculated. It was standing stiffly, pressed against his lower abdomen.

“……Are you out of your mind?”

Woo Seonrim’s eyes, staring at me, were red. Is that bastard losing his mind? I had a sinister premonition.

Woo Seonrim stared at me motionlessly, taking deep breaths, and then moved without warning. He climbed on top of me and fitted his erect penis into the crack of my ass. Woo Seonrim’s breaths were rough.

Woo Seonrim, who had been blankly zoned out until a moment ago, began to pour out words.

“Director-nim, we are sharing each other’s firsts. It really was destiny. You think so too, don’t you?”

“Shit……”

Woo Seonrim pressed down on me from above and hugged my body. Our heated, bare bodies stuck together. I was curled up like a shrimp, unable to move. Trapped in Woo Seonrim’s embrace, I had to accept the kisses he poured onto the crown of my head.

“Heavy……”

“Director-nim, I love you. I love you. I love you.”

Goosebumps rose on my skin at the repetitive murmuring. Woo Seonrim hugged me even tighter, as if he wouldn’t allow even the slightest gap between us. And then he pushed his pelvis forward, poking, poking, at my buttocks. It felt like his penis would enter me at any moment.

It didn’t seem like Woo Seonrim was intentionally moving his pelvis. Listening to the voice murmuring right next to my ear, that bastard had already lost his mind.

“Choi Yisak, Choi Yisak, Choi Yisak, Choi Yisak……….”

He clung to me like a beast left with only instinct, calling my name without rest. He seemed crazy. I could barely breathe while being held captive by Woo Seonrim. To make matters worse, at some point, a damp wetness began to touch my cheek. It was Woo Seonrim’s tears.

“……Are you crying, by any chance?”

Usually, he walks around with a vacant expression, making one wonder if he’s even alive. How many times has Woo Seonrim shown me his tears? In times like these, he was a more emotional guy than me.

“Why are you crying?”

“Because I’m happy……”

Woo Seonrim took in a wet breath and nuzzled his nose against mine.

“There’s no need to cry.”

“I, I’m so moved, right now.”

“Try to breathe properly.”

“Let’s… cherish and love each other forever.”

“Haah.”

Conversation was already impossible. Is it really okay to spend my life with a crazy bastard like this? Damn it, the option of breaking up with Woo Seonrim just wouldn’t come to mind.

Even in the midst of this, his ferociously erect penis continued to press down on my behind. My buttocks were all slippery from the precum Woo Seonrim had released. I couldn’t breathe. The situation repeated where, if I struggled to get even a little away from Woo Seonrim, we would get tangled up in an even stranger position.

Squeeze, then the head of Woo Seonrim’s penis brushed lightly against my hole.

“Eut.”

For a moment, I wondered what it would feel like if his penis just pushed all the way in like this. The muscles would surely stretch tight and it would be overwhelming. Mocking my lament just a moment ago about my life being held hostage by a crazy man, the inside of my walls vibrated.

“Hey… your, your cock is touching me……”

My voice wavered hideously. Anyone could tell it wasn’t a tone of dislike. Fuck, I wanted to bite my tongue.

This is all Woo Seonrim’s fault. It’s because that damn bastard has been slowly taming me. A lecher, a madman, a weirdo, a pervert, the likes of which there are no two in the world……. In my mind, I was pouring all the blame on Woo Seonrim, but my hole continued to twitch.

Woo Seonrim, who had been sniffling softly and nuzzling his nose through my hair, slightly lifted his head. And then he relaxed the arms that had been restraining my body and stared down at me.

“What, what are you looking at.”

“……”

“Fuck, bl, blink your eyes a little.”

While Woo Seonrim was silent, the humidity in the air seemed to rise. Every time I breathed, my chest felt heavy, and a cold sweat beaded on my skin, making it sticky. Only after observing me for a long time as if looking at a taxidermy specimen, Woo Seonrim slowly opened his mouth.

“……Do you want to?”

Woo Seonrim’s voice was lower than usual. The moment his voice seeped into my ears, my penis twitched regardless of my will.

“What……”

“Is it okay to?”

“So, what……”

I swallowed dryly. I knew full well what Woo Seonrim’s question meant, but my head was dizzy, not knowing how to answer. With the corners of his eyes flushed red with excitement, Woo Seonrim said clearly.

“The act of putting my penis into your behind, Director-nim.”

“……”

“It feels like it will go right in if we just do this a little more.”

“……”

“We can change the terms of the contract with mutual agreement. Right. Am I wrong?”

He’s good at talking, so calmly. A guy who didn’t even go to school. I guess it’s because he was born smart.

“It will be fine if you just say the one word, to put it in, Director-nim.”

“I’d rather die……”

“You don’t want to? Then I won’t.”

He was a uselessly diligent bastard in things like this. Can’t he just put it in? Does he have to hear those words from a person’s mouth? Fuck, it’s so embarrassing…….

Then I thought. I was always a person whose actions preceded his words. On the outside, I pretended to be a rational businessman, but in reality, I lived as my body led me. Most of the words I uttered were either bluffs or lies. I had no talent whatsoever for putting sincerity into language.

Quitting piano, bringing Woo Seonrim home as if picking him up off the street, falling in love with Woo Seonrim. All of these were things that happened in a brain circuit that had little to do with reason. I just have to be myself. So… I did that.

Without a word, I wrapped both arms around Woo Seonrim’s waist. I pulled him towards me just like that. I could feel Woo Seonrim’s body stiffen, slightly flustered. I buried my face in Woo Seonrim’s shoulder to hide my trembling eyes.

“……Director-nim.”

“Shut up.”

“I haven’t said anything yet.”

“I don’t know. Just shut up.”

Woo Seonrim laughed lowly and laid my body straight. Squeeze, the strength of the hand grabbing and spreading the inside of my thighs was fierce. I squeezed my eyes shut.

“You shouldn’t hold your breath.”

“……”

“Keep breathing.”

“Ha, fuck. Just shut up and……”

It was the moment I was about to lose my temper and tell him to just do it. The head of his penis, which had been perched precariously, suddenly pushed its way into my hole. My breath hitched for a moment, and my body froze.

“Heo, eok… euk.”

It was a completely different feeling from a finger. I thought my ass had already experienced all it could and had finished adapting, but I was completely mistaken. Is it because the tip of his penis is particularly thick? Will it be bearable once this part passes? I entertained such a hope for a moment, but unfortunately, that bastard’s shaft was also thick.

Squeeze, his penis pushes a little further inside. It was bearable when Woo Seonrim stirred inside with his fingers, spreading my inner walls, but now the sensation of being filled up without any gaps was overwhelming. I kept forgetting to breathe. I felt like I would get a muscle ache in my shoulders, which were hunched up in surprise.

At that moment, Woo Seonrim’s white fingers approached my lips. Prying open my tightly shut mouth, Woo Seonrim said.

“You have to breathe.”

“Heueup, haah……”

Woo Seonrim filled my wavering vision. I barely managed to frog-breathe and get oxygen into my body. The tongue that touched the air was parched. I was embarrassed by my own appearance, panting and unable to breathe even before he had properly inserted it. Though Woo Seonrim seemed extremely satisfied. His eyes, scanning me, sparkled much more clearly than usual.

“It’s okay.”

“What… what’s okay……”

The voice whispering was sweet, even though what he was doing was not okay at all.

“We’ve been practicing hard, haven’t we. Just, huu, waiting for this day.”

Woo Seonrim took a deep breath and then pushed his penis more than halfway in at once.

“Ah……!”

The sensation of it pushing its way inside was vivid. It was an unbearable volume. I was afraid that if he continued like this, all my internal organs would be crushed.

But it wasn’t just scary. The inner walls, which had learned pleasure over a long period of time, vibrated. I wanted more. I already knew what it felt like when he pressed down precisely on the spot near my prostate. All of it was something Woo Seonrim had personally taught me through his fingertips.

“Heuu… Ah……”

It felt like someone was squeezing the area around my lower abdomen. It was difficult to breathe now, even though I kept my mouth open. It felt like my brain had melted away and I had become a body that only reacted to sexual sensations. A sticky fluid was trickling out of my penis.

Woo Seonrim lowered his head and touched his forehead to mine as he slowly pushed his penis further in. He seemed determined to bury it all the way to the root.

“Ueup, euk.”

It felt insanely good, but my stomach was churning. Having reached this state, I felt like I understood why Woo Seonrim had said practice was necessary. It was something my body wouldn’t have been able to endure if I had experienced it without any preparation.

Woo Seonrim wrapped both hands around my head and pushed his pelvis forward.

“Heuk……!”

Thud, the crack of my ass collided with Woo Seonrim’s groin. I instinctively realized that I was finally connected to Woo Seonrim all the way. The inside convulsed and tightened, and the pressure intensified, causing the sexual sensation to boil over.

Woo Seonrim let out a slow, low sigh and remained still for a moment. As Woo Seonrim’s body stopped moving, I could feel my own body trembling even more clearly in contrast. My entire body was truly vibrating. I hadn’t ejaculated, but a wave of excitement washed over me as if I had.

“Heut, eu, eu……”

The pleasure doesn’t stop. It feels like my whole body has become a sex organ.

Woo Seonrim rubbed his cheek against mine and murmured.

“This is how we become one. Forever.”

“Aeu, eung.”

I forgot how to speak. I couldn’t hear Woo Seonrim’s words properly.

“I’ll pull out all the poisonous weeds around you.”

My side twisted from the extreme pleasure, and my hips lifted into the air. A pain shot through my steeply rising chest. Drip, drip, the moisture that had pooled in my eyes at some point flowed down past my temples.

Thrust, thrust. Woo Seonrim began to move his hips at a slow pace. My inner walls, which had been stretched tight, were pulled out and then pushed back in with his penis.

I was on the verge of fainting. The pleasure, which had been about to subside a little, shot back up to its maximum every time his penis struck inside. It felt like I was releasing not just tears but all the moisture in my body.

Woo Seonrim continued to murmur while holding me tightly.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t find you at once.”

“Eung, ah, ah!”

“It would have been good, huu, if we had met right at the competition. I was foolish. I got the name wrong……”

Woo Seonrim’s monologue seeped through the cracks of my shattered mind. I couldn’t decipher what he was saying in my head. My reason was truly, completely shattered.

“Choi Yisak. It was Choi Yisak.”

“Ueu, uk……”

“No. It’s not that. I was still young then. I didn’t know anything, a time when I knew nothing of the world’s providence. There were things I learned by going there. That’s right. If I didn’t have that experience, I wouldn’t have been able to protect you properly, and that would have been truly terrible. Right.”

“Hueup, heueeuu……”

Woo Seonrim’s murmuring grew faster and faster.

“I love you. Yisak. I love you……. It’s okay to cry. I love you even if you cry. To fit together perfectly, like puzzle pieces, like an indentation and a protrusion, there needs to be a concave and a convex part. It shouldn’t be too smooth. Because it would slip. But, yes, we are perfect now. Everything, for the sake of now, was inevitably chipped and carved……”

From the middle of it, I completely lost my reason and just cried like an animal.

“We… are perfect, Yisak.”