SLC 65

“Seongha-ssi… wait a second….”

The moment the door closed, Mok Seongha jumped at Kim Jinkyung and kissed him. It was closer to biting than kissing. As if he were chewing soft flesh, he gnawed Kim Jinkyung’s lips.

“Wait, I… I have something to say….”

Kim Jinkyung barely managed to push Mok Seongha away. His expression twisted into something vicious.

“What now? What do you want to say this time?”

He spoke while undoing the buttons of Kim Jinkyung’s shirt one by one.

“Do you know what imprinting is?”

“Fuck, I don’t.”

The buttons would not come undone properly, and Mok Seongha grew frustrated.

“It’s an imprinting effect. When someone is born from an egg, or when they first open their eyes, and they see a specific person… ngh.”

Mok Seongha tore the buttons off the shirt instead. Then he lowered his head again and kissed him.

“…Seongha-ssi. Please listen to what I’m saying….”

“I’m listening.”

He didn’t sound like he was listening. Kim Jinkyung grabbed his shoulders and pulled his lips away.

“There is an imprinting effect in humans too. When someone has an intense experience at a young age….”

Mok Seongha grabbed both of Kim Jinkyung’s hands, lifted them up, and kissed him. His tongue moved inside his mouth without restraint. Every time Kim Jinkyung tried to speak, Mok Seongha changed the angle of his lips and kissed him harder. Only after Kim Jinkyung lost strength, felt suffocated, and leaned back against the wall did Mok Seongha finally pull away.

“Haah… haah….”

Kim Jinkyung gasped for air. Mok Seongha took a long breath as well.

“…I know you’re smart, but do you really have to teach me that kind of thing right now?”

Desire filled Mok Seongha’s eyes. Even while waiting in the hotel lobby, even while taking the key from Secretary Kang and waiting for the elevator, he had looked at Kim Jinkyung with those eyes the entire time.

Eyes that bite and expect a feast.

“That’s not it. I’m saying that Seongha-ssi could be like this because of that.”

Kim Jinkyung continued speaking while looking at him.

“The way Seongha-ssi acts toward me… it could be because you’ve never met anyone your age before. You might be misunderstanding it.”

He couldn’t stop thinking about it. Mok Seongha had spent almost his entire life inside the mansion.

He had never gone to school. He had never made friends. He had never had a special person, not even once.

Kim Jinkyung thought that the other person needed to know that their relationship might have come from a misunderstanding of emotions.

That was probably right.

“You’re saying someone comes out of an egg and thinks the first person they see is their mother?”

Mok Seongha asked. Kim Jinkyung nodded. He knew that he was the only person Mok Seongha had ever maintained a relationship with.

Mok Seongha laughed.

“So what? Are you my mom? Or do I look like some bastard getting his dick hard for his own mom?”

“That’s not what I mean….”

“Hey.”

Mok Seongha pressed a finger against Kim Jinkyung’s forehead.

“Do you know how many tutors I met before I met you?”

“……”

“You think I picked you that day without thinking?”

The finger that had been poking his forehead slid down the bridge of his nose and rubbed his lips.

“If it wasn’t you…”

The man’s finger rubbed and pressed his soft lips. It was nothing special, but the place where his hand touched burned.

“I would’ve stayed inside the egg.”

His finger pried his lips open and slipped inside. The way he rubbed and traced his tongue and the inside of his mouth was explicit, almost like sex.

“…Teacher, you took my virginity.”

Mok Seongha lowered his head and whispered in Kim Jinkyung’s ear. Blood rushed to Kim Jinkyung’s face.

“Where did you even learn to say something like that?”

“The internet.”

…The internet needs to be blocked….

“If you took me out of the egg, then take responsibility.”

Mok Seongha grinded his crotch against him and growled.

“…What about marriage?”

“Why are you talking about marriage all of a sudden?”

“Are you going to do it?”

“If you tell me to.”

Mok Seongha answered while looking at Kim Jinkyung. His eyes had not a shred of hesitation, to the point that the one asking felt weak instead.

Kim Jinkyung sighed. Where was he even supposed to start teaching this?

“If I said I was getting married, how do you think you’d feel.”

He planned to explain it step by step by using the other person’s position as an example. That plan fell through when red sparks flew in Mok Seongha’s eyes.

“You’re getting married?”

Mok Seongha grabbed Kim Jinkyung’s shoulders.

“No, just if, hypothetically….”

“You could do it with women too? Fuck, you don’t care if it’s a man or a woman?”

Despair surfaced in Mok Seongha’s eyes.

“You sleep with women too? You don’t just like men? There’s a limit to how promiscuous a person can be!”

He did not even give Kim Jinkyung time to answer and pushed him aggressively, he were about to devour him.

“No. Why would I like women….”

“Then why get married?!”

Mok Seongha shouted. His breathing quickly turned rough as his emotions grew out of his control.

“I hate it. Don’t.”

He hugged Kim Jinkyung, kissed his neck without restraint, and murmured.

“If you get married, I’ll kill them. Whoever it is, I’ll bite off both arms right in front of you, tear them off, and swallow them….”

Mok Seongha’s threat ended there. Kim Jinkyung covered his mouth with his palm and pushed him away.

“I won’t.”

Kim Jinkyung explained clearly so there would be no confusion.

“I’m not getting married. I have no intention to, and I don’t like women.”

Mok Seongha pulled Kim Jinkyung’s hand down.

“Fuck. You like men though.”

“……”

He couldn’t deny that.

Mok Seongha rubbed his forehead against Kim Jinkyung’s shoulder.

“Then don’t ever say that kind of thing again. Just hearing it makes me feel like I’m going to throw up. It makes me feel disgusting.”

“I feel the same.”

Kim Jinkyung carefully stroked the back of Mok Seongha’s head and continued.

“When I think about Seongha-ssi getting married, I don’t feel good either.”

Mok Seongha flinched and lifted his head.

“…Then I won’t do it?”

“That’s not something I get to decide. Seongha-ssi has to decide that.”

It took a lot of courage just to state his opinion. But the final decision ultimately belonged to Mok Seongha.

“You said I had to do that… to live like a human.”

Mok Seongha looked at Kim Jinkyung as he spoke.

When he said he had decided to get married, Kim Jinkyung had clearly said it was a good choice. Kim Jinkyung was the smartest person he knew. He always gave him the right answer. Mok Seongha never doubted the answers he chose. The process of learning from him was time spent trusting him completely.

“I didn’t know things would turn out like this back then… I misspoke.”

Kim Jinkyung admitted his mistake. Mok Seongha felt strange realizing that Kim Jinkyung could give him a wrong answer too.

“Seongha-ssi, you decide.”

Kim Jinkyung said.

“Not someone else. Think for yourself and decide.”

Once an idea entered his head, no matter how it got there, he acted like it was an absolute truth. Kim Jinkyung thought that Mok Seongha needed to cut it off by his own will.

“…I don’t want to.”

Mok Seongha answered with his face scrunched up.

“I don’t want to do it. I don’t want to get married. I…”

‘I hope it keeps raining.’

When Kim Jinkyung said that, Mok Seongha felt, for the first time, that he had been given permission to stay exactly as he was.

“Do I really have to live like a human?”

Mok Seongha hugged Kim Jinkyung with all his strength and spoke in a trembling voice.

“…Even if my eyes are yellow, even if my teeth are sharp, even if my fur is black, is that still okay?”

“Yes. Of course. As much as you want.”

When Kim Jinkyung answered, Mok Seongha kissed him. Kim Jinkyung wrapped his arms around his neck and returned the kiss.

It feels so good.

Kim Jinkyung tightened the arms holding Mok Seongha. Just a few hours ago, he had been so shaken by the thought that everything could go wrong. He realized that he liked Mok Seongha far more than he thought, and that he was weak when it came to him.

The moment the large cat jumped at him, prepared to die, Kim Jinkyung thought that he had to protect him, no matter what.

“…Teacher….”

Mok Seongha murmured while biting down on Kim Jinkyung’s lower lip. He tried to answer, but Mok Seongha kissed him again, sealing his mouth. Mok Seongha repeatedly called him teacher in a feverish voice.

Kim Jinkyung gave up on answering and responded by hugging Mok Seongha, holding the back of his head.

Mok Seongha pressed his lower body against him and stroked down his back. Goosebumps ran over his skin.

“I want to do it.”

Mok Seongha murmured with their lips still touching. He said “I want to do it, Teacher.”

It was the first time since they had had sex in the cramped studio apartment that day. Kim Jinkyung had been so sick the next day that he threw up everything he ate, it wasn’t a good experience.

It had all gone too far. His entire body’s feelings seemed to have been destroyed.

“Can I?”

At Mok Seongha’s question, Kim Jinkyung didn’t nod right away and slightly parted his lips. Mok Seongha saw the fear in Kim Jinkyung’s big eyes and whispered that he won’t hurt him.

“I studied.”

“Studied what?”

“Sex. How to do it….”

Mok Seongha put Kim Jinkyung’s hand into his mouth. He sucked on each finger one by one. At first, Kim Jinkyung thought he was trying to treat his injuries, but even after the wounds were gone, Mok Seongha did not stop licking his hand.

“Please… stop, ngh.”

His tongue moved between the fingers. Kim Jinkyung’s breath hitched when he felt his tongue licking along the webbing. He learned for the first time that the flesh between the fingers could become an erogenous zone. A shiver ran down his legs, and his body trembled. After licking both of Kim Jinkyung’s hands, Mok Seongha grabbed his soaked hand and pulled it down to make him touch his groin.

“I want to put this inside you.”

His erection was already hard. Kim Jinkyung tried to pull his hand away, but Mok Seongha pushed his hand between his clothes. He felt the veins raised on the hard cock with his palm.

Mok Seongha rolled his hips and rubbed himself against Kim Jinkyung’s hand, then bit his lower lip. That alone made Kim Jinkyung’s stomach tingle.

“Your palm is so soft. Fuck.”

Since Kim Jinkyung’s hand had been the first thing to help him sexually, Mok Seongha was especially weak to it. He closed his eyes while rubbing Kim Jinkyung’s hand against his lower body.

“Hng… haah….”

Mok Seongha masturbated using Kim Jinkyung’s hand. The thick tip spread his fingers apart as it rubbed against them. His fingers did not open wide enough for something so large to move in and out easily. They started hurting as they were stretched to their limit. Kim Jinkyung’s hand quickly became soaked with the fluid Mok Seongha released. A wet, sticky sound echoed. Mok Seongha lifted his chin with his eyes closed.

I want to kiss him.

The intense desire he felt in that moment made Kim Jinkyung reach out with his other arm without thinking and wrap it around Mok Seongha’s neck. He pulled his head down and kissed him. Mok Seongha sucked at Kim Jinkyung’s mouth while stroking himself with the other person’s hand.

His rough tongue and his cock.

Those parts of his body, which heightened sensation, fueled Kim Jinkyung’s arousal. Even without being touched, his own penis was hard. Mok Seongha noticed and moved the hand that had been stroking his back down to undo the buckle of Kim Jinkyung’s pants. He pulled down his underwear and pants together and started rubbing him with his thigh.

“Hng….”

The pressure of his strong thigh against his cock made Kim Jinkyung’s breath hitch. Because of their height difference, Kim Jinkyung’s toes lifted off the floor every time Mok Seongha rubbed his thigh upward.

Their cocks rubbed together with a wet friction between his fingers.

Mok Seongha came first. He soaked Kim Jinkyung’s hand. The warmth spreading over his hand made Kim Jinkyung come as well.

“Haah….”

“…Haah.”

They looked at each other while catching their breath, then kissed at the same time. Mok Seongha lifted Kim Jinkyung up and walked over to the bed. He opened his eyes wide when his back met the mattress.

Mok Seongha looked down on him, breathing roughly. He pulled off the T-shirt he was wearing and stripped off his pants and drawers one after another. Kim Jinkyung turned his head in embarrassment, even though it was not the first time he had seen him naked because of their unusual situation.

“Why?”

Mok Seongha turned Kim Jinkyung’s chin so he had to look at him and asked.

“Why won’t you look at me?”

Sweat dampened his hair and stuck it to his forehead. His sharper jawline made him look more manly, even though it had only been a few days.

Did he get taller again?

Kim Jinkyung stared up at Mok Seongha without thinking.

“You’re not getting on a plane, right?”

“…I can’t.”

He had said that he would have to appear in court soon. He had been released for now after insisting that he was a deranged animal fetishist, but there were still responsibilities left to deal with. There was no way he could even think about leaving the country in this situation.

“I’m going to tear up your passport.”

Mok Seongha kissed Kim Jinkyung’s cheek and continued.

“I’ll rip it to shreds and burn it.”

“…….”

I can remake it at the district office in two days….

“Don’t ever leave me again.”

Mok Seongha spoke in a pitiful voice while peppering his cheek with kisses. It seemed that being left behind in the middle of an eight lane road had hurt him.

“I’m sorry.”

Kim Jinkyung apologized without resistance. That had been weighing on him the most already. The reason he had run without looking back was the same. He was afraid that if he looked back and their eyes met, he would stop right there.

“…I’m sorry. I…”

Mok Seongha bit his lips again, the rest did not matter. When Kim Jinkyung came back to his senses, he realized that all his clothes were gone. Mok Seongha, who had completely stripped him, traced the remaining wound on Kim Jinkyung’s shoulder with his fingers. It was the wound left by his claws when he had turned into a panther at the airport and tackled him.

“Ugh….”

Mok Seongha lowered his head and licked his shoulder. The wound had disappeared, but Mok Seongha sank his teeth in again and slowly bit down.

“…It hurts.”

“I want to leave my bite marks all over your body.”

He wanted to make sure no one else could ever aim for this. He wanted to coat his entire body with saliva, leave teeth marks everywhere, and soak him with semen to mark his territory. Mok Seongha repeatedly bit and licked Kim Jinkyung’s neck and shoulders. Caught between pain and a razor thin thrill, Kim Jinkyung let out a small moan.

“Teacher….”

Mok Seongha suddenly called him.

“Yes.”

“Do you like me?”

It was the first time he had ever asked something so direct.

Kim Jinkyung nodded.

If he did not like him, he would never have caused that kind of chaos at the airport. He had lived a smooth life without ever drawing attention or causing trouble for anyone. Now it felt like the foundation of his life had been shaken.

“Seongha-ssi…what about you?”

“Hey.”

Mok Seongha laughed, he found the question absurd.

“After I jumped into your arms ready to get shot, you still don’t get it?”

“…but…”

He wanted to hear it. He wanted to hear what Mok Seongha felt about him, from his own mouth.

“Please tell me.”

At Kim Jinkyung’s request, Mok Seongha answered.

“I like you.”

“…….”

“I want you to be my family.”

Mok Seongha laid bare his feelings.

He knew how long it had taken for his maternal grandfather to accept him. But he waited. He waited until his grandfather called his name.

‘Seongha-ya.’

On rainy days, his grandfather never came out of his room. After the rain stopped, he always came to the garden to look for him. Mok Seongha hid his grotesque body among the flowers and waited. He knew that his grandfather would come looking for him someday, so he never felt anxious.

But after Kim Jinkyung disappeared, his anxiety grew the longer he waited.

What if he does not come? What if they never meet again?

If I set fire to his parents’ apple orchard, would he show up? Even if Kim Jinkyung appeared then, he would probably never meet me again.

He understood why his grandfather had wanted to make a family for him before leaving. But if it was not Kim Jinkyung, he did not want to be family with anyone else.

“Even if you end up hating me, even if you come to resent me… don’t abandon me.”

“I’m sorry….”

Kim Jinkyung’s big eyes quickly reddened. Guilt filled his kind eyes, where the whites and blacks stood out clearly.

“That day, when I left you there, Seongha-ssi… I’m sorry.”

Mok Seongha did not say it was okay.

If only Kim Jinkyung, who was kind to the point of being foolish, would feel guilty and pity him. If only that would make him stay and not leave again.

“Why did you do that?”

Mok Seongha asked. It was a question that had never found an answer, no matter how long he sat alone in the empty room thinking about it. He wanted Kim Jinkyung to hand him the right answer.

“…Because you said you were getting married.”

Kim Jinkyung’s voice trembled as he spoke.

Even though he knew it was the right choice, he could not bring himself to ask the other person to choose the wrong answer.

‘Everything the teacher taught me was always the right answer.’

It might have been a momentary impulse. Mok Seongha had not liked men from the start like him, and he had not met many people either.