SLC 67

He stirred the soup on the tray with a spoon and took a large scoop. Mok Seongha opened his mouth as if he had been waiting for this and Kim Jinkyung fed the soup into his mouth.

“…Are you really okay?”

“Mm, yeah.”

Mok Seongha swallowed the soup and replied.

Kim Jinkyung was the one who passed out first after their intense lovemaking. He had barely eaten for days to begin with, and then so many things suddenly happened that he could not keep his senses. Furthermore, they had sex for several hours without a break. By the end, he did not even have the strength left to lift a finger.

‘What is wrong? Are you sick? Should we go to the hospital?’

Mok Seongha looked pale. Even though he did not have a stitch of clothing on, he looked ready to carry Kim Jinkyung on his back and run out right that second.

…Where does he think he is going with his ears and tail out?

Kim Jinkyung mumbled while he hugged a pillow.

‘ …I’m tired.’

‘What?’

‘I am so, so tired.’

Kim Jinkyung barely managed to answer while he lay on the bed with his eyes closed. Mok Seongha went to the fridge and brought some water. After Kim Jinkyung drank two small bottles of water, he finally managed to open his eyes.

‘Do you need anything else?’

Before he could answer Mok Seongha’s question, Kim Jinkyung’s stomach growled. Mok Seongha looked down at his skinny body for a moment and then picked up the hotel phone. He ordered all sorts of food from room service.

‘I can’t eat all of that.’

Kim Jinkyung tried to stop him too late, but Mok Seongha did not even pretend to listen.

‘Look at your body. What have you been eating lately?’

‘…….’

Kim Jinkyung looked up at Mok Seongha. He saw the body of the man whose first digit of his weight had changed. Not just his jawline, but his entire body had become sharp. He already had a cool impression, but now he looked even colder.

Once the room service arrived, Mok Seongha made Kim Jinkyung sit on the bed. He brought over a large table and laid out the food.

‘Eat.’

He put a spoon and fork into Kim Jinkyung’s hands. The hunger he had forgotten returned the moment he smelled the food. However, Kim Jinkyung was a hundred times more bothered by the man who watched him from beside the bed than by the hunger twisting his gut.

‘Do you want some?’

Kim Jinkyung asked as he slid the soup, which was at least easy to digest, toward him. Mok Seongha looked down at the soup Kim Jinkyung offered without a word.

Is it still too much for him?

He had bragged about eating a piece of chocolate Kim Jinkyung gave him, but Mok Seongha normally couldn’t put food given by others into his mouth. Just as Kim Jinkyung decided he should pack up and return to the mansion, Mok Seongha opened his mouth toward Kim Jinkyung.

‘Ah.’

‘…Excuse me?’

‘Feed me. Ah.’

‘……’

Kim Jinkyung hesitated for a moment. He scooped some soup and carefully brought it to Mok Seongha’s mouth. While he worried if he should actually put it in, Mok Seongha snapped his teeth onto the spoon. He swallowed the soup in one gulp. After that, he kept his mouth open like a baby sparrow.

Kim Jinkyung fed him one bite at a time and watched Mok Seongha’s reaction. He couldn’t help but worry that he might have a seizure or vomit.

But Mok Seongha looked a bit cute as he quietly accepted the food. His ears moved slightly back every time he swallowed soup, and his tail swayed while the spoon was in his mouth.

…Everything about him is cute.

“Ah.”

Kim Jinkyung scooped the last of the soup and put it in Mok Seongha’s mouth.

“Are you okay?”

Mok Seongha swallowed it and replied with a “yeah.”

What a relief.

Kim Jinkyung finally felt at ease and put the spoon down.

“Teacher, you open your mouth too.”

“What?”

“I will feed you.”

Mok Seongha picked up the spoon. Kim Jinkyung said it was fine and declined, but Mok Seongha did not listen. He scooped the broth from the short rib soup, blew on it, and brought it to Kim Jinkyung’s lips.

“…….”

“Now, hurry up.”

Kim Jinkyung had no choice but to open his mouth. He felt his scratchy throat soften a bit as the hot broth entered his body. Mok Seongha continued to feed him the short rib soup after that.

“I will stop here. I can’t eat any more.”

Kim Jinkyung shook his head before he could even finish half the bowl.

“Then eat something else. I will feed you.”

“I am okay.”

His stomach had likely shrunk because he had barely eaten lately, or perhaps he just felt bloated after a few spoonfuls of broth.

“Do you want some fruit?”

Mok Seongha brought a fruit plate and placed it in front of Kim Jinkyung as he asked. He did not feel like eating, but the big cat looked so anxious that Kim Jinkyung had no choice. He plucked a single Shine Muscat grape and put it in his mouth.

“Do you like this?”

Mok Seongha asked while he plucked a bunch of grapes from the stem and piled them onto the plate.

…I won’t be able to eat all of those.

“I will feed you.”

“No. You should eat too, Seongha-ssi.”

“Then, are you giving this to me?”

Mok Seongha asked as he held up a Shine Muscat. Kim Jinkyung wondered if he was asking to pay for the room service. It was a confusing question, but Kim Jinkyung nodded quietly.

Mok Seongha put a Shine Muscat in his mouth and started to chew. He watched Mok Seongha’s reaction with a grape in his own hand. Fortunately, he swallowed the fruit without any issues.

“Please have more.”

Following Kim Jinkyung’s suggestion, Mok Seongha put another grape into his mouth.

It is good to see him eat well.

Kim Jinkyung felt a bit overwhelmed with emotion as he watched the man, who used to reject everything, now accept whatever was offered. He felt as if he had completely tamed a wild beast.

…Especially since his tail and ears are out right now.

Kim Jinkyung nibbled on his grape and looked back and forth between the ears atop Mok Seongha’s head and his tail.

“What?”

Mok Seongha noticed his gaze and asked.

“Well…why do those come out?”

“I don’t know.”

Mok Seongha continued as he popped a light green grape into his mouth.

“I think they come out after sex. I guess they appear when I feel good.”

As if to prove his words, the ears on his head flapped back and forth a couple of times. Kim Jinkyung’s eyes instinctively drifted toward the ears.

“Do you want to touch them?”

“Is that okay?”

Mok Seongha burst into laughter, he found the question was ridiculous.

“You even touch my cock, so why act shy now?”

Kim Jinkyung’s face turned bright red. Mok Seongha laughed and leaned his head toward Kim Jinkyung. The latter sighed and carefully touched his ear.

It is soft.

The small, rounded shape of the ears helped emphasize the panther’s sturdy and sleek impression. Since a handsome man had them on his head, they seemed useful even though they served no practical purpose.

He is really cute.

Kim Jinkyung thought as he toyed with the ears. He wondered what the point was when the man technically had four ears now, but he decided it was fine because it was cute.

“These shouldn’t come out in public. You will have to be careful.”

“It is not like I am going to have sex in front of people outside. Why worry?”

Kim Jinkyung squeezed the ear in his hand.

“Ah!”

Mok Seongha screamed and pulled his head back.

“Could you please stop saying things like that?”

“Why shouldn’t I say it? It is just you and me. And we are indoors.”

The situation met all the conditions Kim Jinkyung had set. But such words and expressions were still overwhelming for him.

“But it is a bit….”

“A bit what?”

Mok Seongha demanded an answer as he smoothed out his crumpled ear.

“It is just… you know.”

Kim Jinkyung mumbled with a red face. Mok Seongha replied by gently tapping Kim Jinkyung’s neck with his long tail.

“If anyone heard you, they would think you are someone who has never had sex before. Even though you have done it so much. Fuck.”

Mok Seongha’s tail thumped against the bedsheets, he couldn’t let go of his anger even after he spoke.

“……”

Kim Jinkyung worried for a moment about what to do. He fiddled with a Shine Muscat and then carefully spoke up.

“I have something to tell you.”

Mok Seongha, who had been hitting the sheets with his tail, gave a blunt reply. “What is it?”

Kim Jinkyung swallowed dryly.

“At first, I didn’t want to do this tutoring.”

“What?”

Mok Seongha raised his eyebrows.

“It was not the atmosphere I wanted. I was scared too. So….”

“So what? What do you want me to do about it? You signed the contract. …Don’t tell me you want to tutor some other bastard now?”

A murderous glint appeared in Mok Seongha’s eyes. Kim Jinkyung quickly waved his hands.

“It is not that. Back then, I wanted to get fired… so I lied about a few things.”

“What lie?”

“That…. That I went around meeting a lot of men.”

Mok Seongha asked “What?” in return, then frowned slightly and fell into thought.

Will he be angry that I lied? But isn’t it better to have no experience than to have too much? No, he might think I am pathetic for never having done it at my age.

Kim Jinkyung felt his heart shrink as the interval of Mok Seongha’s tail thumping the sheets grew shorter. Finally, Mok Seongha spoke.

“So you didn’t just meet a lot of men, you fucked lot of them?”

“No!”

Why did the conversation jump there?

Kim Jinkyung was so flabbergasted that he accidentally crushed the Shine Muscat in his hand.

“What a waste.”

Mok Seongha brought Kim Jinkyung’s hand to his mouth and licked the green juice flowing between his fingers.

“I didn’t meet a lot of them. I didn’t meet any at all.”

“You didn’t meet any what?”

“Men.”

“So, what about them?”

“…….”

The resistance to correcting once-injected information was stronger than expected. Kim Jinkyung sighed and slowly continued explaining.

“I mean, I have never, like, dated a man or anyone else before.”

If he still does not understand after I said this much, I should take him to an otolaryngologist and have his hearing tested first.

What is the point of having four ears if they are useless?

Kim Jinkyung anxiously waited for Mok Seongha’s response.

“Then….”

Mok Seongha muttered while he held Kim Jinkyung’s hand against his lips.

“Only me…did you like only me?”

“That is….”

Flashes of past crushes passed by. When Kim Jinkyung’s lips trembled, Mok Seongha bit his finger.

“Why do you keep me in suspense like this?!”

Kim Jinkyung frowned with an ‘Ah,’ and Mok Seongha licked the spot with his tongue. He was the incarnation of giving the disease and then the medicine.

“I had people I liked, but I never dated them.”

“Does that make sense? Why didn’t you date them if you liked them? Did you only pick guys who had no eyes?”

It was surprising that a compliment could be formulated in such an unpleasant way.

“…I never told them.”

“Told them what?”

“That I liked them. I never even made it obvious to the other person that I liked him. I had no intention to do so, either.”

“Why?”

It was a genuine question.

Mok Seongha didn’t understand. If a guy who is so lewd, pretty, kind like a pushover, smart, and even great at sex confesses, everyone would fall for him.

“Because I didn’t want to. Even if I liked them, I felt like it wouldn’t work out, and I didn’t particularly feel the desire for it to work out.”

That was why Kim Jinkyung’s crushes were always easy. It was one sided, but he held the initiative because he could handle both the start and the end by himself.

“Then why me?”

“Seongha-ssi, for the first time….”

He felt greedy, and nothing went as he planned; his thoughts and actions worked separately. It was a crush where he lost the initiative. When he came to his senses, he always ended up wanting him.

“…Because I want to stay by your side.”

Kim Jinkyung mustered courage and confessed.

“So I wanted to show it, and I got greedy, so it’s the first time I’ve dated someone….”

He couldn’t finish the sentence. Mok Seongha jumped at Kim Jinkyung and kissed him. It was an urgent and rough kiss, so much so that he could not even breathe.

“Wait… a moment….”

He wanted to ask him to stop for a moment, but Mok Seongha didn’t even pretend to listen.

He peppered his face with kisses and clung to him as if he had not heard anything. He bit the lips with a momentum as if he would die if he did not kiss right this moment.

Mok Seongha kissed with his whole body pressed against him while he clutched Kim Jinkyung’s shoulders tightly with his hands.

“Seongha…., Seongha-ssi….”

Kim Jinkyung called his name and tried to stop him whenever their lips parted. But the more he called the name, the more roughly Mok Seongha kissed him.

His head spun because he couldn’t breathe.

At the moment he felt like he might suffocate to death while kissing, Mok Seongha finally pulled his lips away.

“Ha… ha….”

Kim Jinkyung breathed out in short gasps. His vision returned only after he inhaled oxygen several times.

“Why all of a sudden….”

He felt something salty on his lips while he spoke, Kim Jinkyung wiped the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand. He thought his lip might have torn because Mok Seongha bit it. However, he soon realized that it was not his blood.

Mok Seongha, whose face was flushed red, was having a nosebleed.

“Why, blood…. Wait a moment. Tilt your head back, no, look down.”

Kim Jinkyung was startled and quickly blocked his nose with his hand. Blood dripped down between Kim Jinkyung’s fingers.

“Wait, I will go get some tissues.”

When Kim Jinkyung tried to get up, Mok Seongha grabbed him.

“Say it again.”

“What? About getting tissues?”

“Not that, what you said earlier.”

Mok Seongha’s irises sparkled like stars revealing themselves through the clouds in the dark night sky.

It was a gaze that made it impossible not to grant the request.

Kim Jinkyung searched his memory and recalled the words he had said.

“That… it’s the first time I’ve dated someone?”

Mok Seongha nodded.

“Is it true?”

“Yes.”

It was embarrassing, but it was true. Even at this age, let alone sex, kissing someone or dating was all a first.

“Did you only kiss me?”

Mok Seongha asked.

“Yes.”

“Did you masturbate by rubbing dicks only with me?”

“…Yes.”

He could not even lift his head because he felt ashamed as the other continued asking similar questions.

“It’s true that you only had sex with me, right? Inserting and ejaculating….”

“Of course that’s….”

He wanted to tell him to stop because he only did it with him. That was, if he had not met Mok Seongha’s eyes, he looked like he might cry with his face all covered in blood.

“Really, only with me?”

Mok Seongha asked with a frown. Kim Jinkyung nodded blankly. Mok Seongha hugged him again. Then he muttered.

Thank god, fuck. Thank god.

Kim Jinkyung was a bit stunned.

The other had complained about his non-existent promiscuity before, but Kim Jinkyung did not know he cared this much.

“…It felt unfair.”

Mok Seongha continued.

“It’s natural that you dated before you met me, but fuck, it felt so unfair I thought I would die.”

When he first saw Kim Jinkyung, he thought he was an ordinary human with nothing bothersome about him. It was enough to ignore the preference that he liked men a lot.

But everything became bothersome as time went by. The way he laughed, his voice, his scent, even the shape of a single fingernail. He kept thinking of him.

After he solved the sudden heat with the help of Kim Jinkyung’s hand, he became even more annoyed.

Even the sound of his breathing lingered in his ears.

He felt like he might die of unfairness when he imagined that countless other men besides him knew his lewd moans, the expression that makes his dick hard, his soft palms, and the texture of those squishy lips. If he had been born a little earlier and met Kim Jinkyung, he would have appointed him as a tutor early on to make him solve math problems to death and prevented him from meeting any other men.

On the other hand, he could not understand it. Why did those bastards let go of such a kind guy who is so good at sex after only one night?

…No, did Kim Jinkyung dump them? Fuck. Of course he did. Men would follow in a line if he just waved those lewd-looking hands once, so why would he bother meeting the same man twice? Promiscuous bastard. Lewd bastard. Messy bastard.

He criticized Kim Jinkyung’s debauchery, but he thought it was inevitable. It was natural that he could not even count how many men had eaten him up, since such a pretty guy who is so damn good at sex even had low standards.

It is natural. Of course it is. But he still hate it. He hated it so much that he wanted to make a list of the bastards Kim Jinkyung had slept with so far, tie them all together, and throw them into the sea.

Yet, he said everything was a first with him.

Liking each other, dating, kissing. And even sex.

It was not a matter of purity. Even if Kim Jinkyung had slept with half the men in Korea, his feelings for him would be the same. He just hated it. He wanted to be the only one who knew. He wanted Kim Jinkyung to do it only with him.

He simply… wanted to occupy all of Kim Jinkyung’s time.

“There were days I couldn’t even sleep because I was so angry.”

Especially after Kim Jinkyung cut off contact and disappeared, scenes of Kim Jinkyung holding hands and kissing an ugly man kept popping up in his head, which caused him insane agony. Eventually, he even vomited once because his stomach turned after he imagined things beyond that.

“… It’s unfair. Why are you telling me this only now?”

Mok Seongha muttered in a grumpy voice.

“I’ve been telling you all along that it’s my first time.”

“Do you think anyone would believe that! Fuck, you’re so good at sex! I feel like I’m going to cum just by putting it in you. Do you know? You take a dick so well, I feel like I’m going to explode.”

Mok Seongha argued, he looked like he might die from the amount of unfairness he felt. The round ears on his head trembled every time he spoke.

Kim Jinkyung let out a small sigh.

He had no choice but to feel guilty even if he was innocent, since the other person had panther ears and a tail and was even bleeding from his nose.

Kim Jinkyung looked at the blood on his nose and mouth and said, “Wait a moment,” then he picked up his shirt from under the bed and wiped his face.

“Hey.”

Mok Seongha called him while he stared at Kim Jinkyung. He looked like a beast that had finished a feast because blood his mouth was smeared with blood. His appearance made Kim Jinkyung nervous, it reminded him of their first meeting, so he answered, “Yes,” and straightened his posture.

“Only do it with me from now on.”

Mok Seongha continued.

“Whether it’s dating or sex, only do it with me.”

“I will do that.”

Mok Seongha hugged him, he was not satisfied even after he heard Kim Jinkyung’s answer.

“Even if I die, don’t dream of meeting another guy. I’ll tell Secretary Kang to have you buried alive with me.”

“…Wouldn’t Secretary Kang be buried first?”

“Then I’ll tell someone else to bury us together.”

Does people usually say they should love each other for a lifetime until their black hair turns white in such a cruel and heartless way?

“Why aren’t you answering?”

“Usually, doesn’t the older person die first? Then I would die before Seongha-ssi….”

Kim Jinkyung gasped when Mok Seongha suddenly tightened his grip, he felt like he would break his ribs.

“Don’t say that.”

“Yes?”

“I told you not to say you’ll die before me.”

Mok Seongha growled as he spoke. Kim Jinkyung realized his slip and quickly hugged him

“I will live longer than Seongha-ssi.”

“I hate that. How can I stand the sight of you meeting another bastard after you send me off first?”

“……”

“Die at the same time. Be buried with me. No matter what. Write a contract.”

” …I understand.”

He never imagined the day would come when he would write a contract for burial with his first partner.

Mok Seongha buried his nose in his neck and took a deep breath, seemingly satisfied with Kim Jinkyung’s answer.

“…Teacher.”

“Yes.”

“Let’s have sex.”

…Wasn’t what we did until now sex?