VSP 174

Moreover, Cha Dogyeong howed no sign of trying to lay a hand on Sejun in the slightest. He did not subtly touch him, nor did he show any intention of kissing him, even by “mistake.”

As time passed, Sejun’s courage dwindled. In contrast, his anxiety soared to unimaginable heights.

Is today just not the day? Should I aim for next time? But he’s been like this the whole time. Cha Dogyeong, what is wrong with you all of a sudden?

“I’ll pour for you.”

However, when they sat side-by-side in front of the low table and began drinking alongside a simple snack, something inside Sejun snapped. He watched as Dogyeong, after filling Sejun’s glass, poured soda for himself instead of alcohol.

This bastard has no intention of staying the night today either.

That was why he wasn’t touching the alcohol. Because he had to drive. Then why the hell did he come over after showering just to get his hopes up? As he thought about it, he was seething with anger.

Normally, Dogyeong was the type of guy who would have made a move a hundred times over during the span of a month. Sejun couldn’t understand why he was suddenly acting like a saint.

Do I really not turn you on anymore? Is that it? Because I act like a block of wood during sex?

But you like me!

Sejun glared at the carbonated drink in Cha Dogyeong’s glass and the yellowish beer in his own. Then he acted on impulse.

Splaaash.

Sejun suddenly poured beer onto Cha Dogyeong’s pants.

“…….”

“…….”

Cha Dogyeong’s jeans, which were a pretty light blue from being faded, were instantly stained a dark shade.

Cha Dogyeong’s face was filled with confusion as he alternated between looking at his damp crotch and Sejun’s face.

The beer poured thoroughly onto Dogyeong’s jeans until the very last drop.

Silence fell. Sejun placed the empty glass back on the table. The sound of the glass hitting the surface was exceptionally loud.

To ensure it couldn’t even be called a mistake, Sejun had tilted the glass just now as if Dogyeong’s crotch were the actual drinking cup. He left no room for excuses.

“……Hyung, what are you doing?”

It was intentional. Anyone else would have interpreted this as a “screw you” gesture, but perhaps because the culprit was Sejun, Cha Dogyeong asked in a relatively refined manner.

There was no more room to back down. Sejun opened his mouth.

“Take off……”

Sejun, who had impulsively done it but didn’t know how to seduce, opened his mouth, but gulped at the feeling of his mouth drying out, and opened his mouth again.

“You’ll have to take them off……”

“……?”

“They’re wet. You have to take them off.”

Like a broken radio tape, Sejun repeated that he had to take them off. Blood rushed to his face like crazy.

I’ve lost my mind. I don’t know what kind of glory I expected to see by doing this. No, I should have just said something before doing this, fuck. Why did I just pour the beer out of nowhere?

“…….”

Cha Dogyeong, who had been staring at Sejun, seemed to have quickly figured out his intention, true to his quick wit.

But really? Seo Sejun? To me? He wanted to laugh, and eventually, unable to hold it in, he laughed out loud.

“What is this? Seo Sejun, are you seducing me right now?”

Since it was such an obvious move, his ulterior motive was exposed instantly. Sejun felt his entire face, even his ears, turn bright red and burn hot.

Sejun was about to deny it with a “No?” but he repeated it to himself several times internally. Let’s be honest, I decided to do that!

“……Yeah.”

Sejun affirmed. He felt like he was going to die of embarrassment, but since he had gone as far as committing this crazy act, denying it now would be a loss.

“Because you’ve been…… trying not to do it lately.”

“……Aha.”

Cha Dogyeong didn’t exactly deny it. In fact, there was nothing to deny. It was the truth. Sejun asked in a grumpy voice.

“Are you not doing it because you don’t want to do it with me?”

“As if that’s possible.”

Cha Dogyeong denied it instantly and nonchalantly drank the soda in his cup. He didn’t even seem to have any intention of wiping his crotch.

It was a relief that he said no, but…

“Then why aren’t you?”

Cha Dogyeong paused for a moment. Rather than being troubled by the answer, he looked like he didn’t know how to put it into words. He finally spoke after a long silence.

“We said we were dating again. But I felt like if I tried to jump straight into bed, I’d look too transparent.”

“……?”

“I was trying to approach you slowly.”

The answer was so unexpected that Sejun gaped. It meant that it wasn’t because he didn’t want to do it or anything like that; he had simply been holding back because he felt that his intentions were too obvious. And Sejun, on the other hand, had been agonizing over that.

It was an act where both sides were losing out.

“I couldn’t have hyung getting scared and running away. I don’t think I’ll be able to hold back like I did before.”

For Sejun, who had nowhere left to run, knew he’d be caught even if he did, and had no intention of running anyway, those words were absurd.

Besides, what? Holding back was hard? What on earth did that mean?

“Hold back what? It’s not like it’s my first time with you.”

“That’s because I went easy on hyung back then.”

……He did what?

Unable to understand what he had just heard, Sejun’s eyes wandered around.

Went easy on me? Based on the flow of the conversation, he’s probably talking about…sex.

…When did he ever go easy?

Sejun thought back to the few times he’d had sex with Cha Dogyeong. They were all encounters where he had never been fully sane until the end.

It wasn’t that he had experience with other people, but Cha Dogyeong had been as considerate as possible while eventually becoming a bit rough, and he had never put Sejun to sleep “quietly” enough for Sejun to think he went easy on him.

Seeing Sejun’s dazed face, Cha Dogyeong chuckled and kissed him.

It had been a while, but the feeling wasn’t unfamiliar. Sejun stopped thinking and sucked on the tongue that was rummaging through his mouth.

Ah, as expected, doing this with Cha Dogyeong feels good. He felt drunk even though he hadn’t had a single sip of alcohol yet.

Thanks to that, Dogyeong’s words about quickly blurred in Sejun’s mind.

After biting and sucking Sejun’s lips a few times, Cha Dogyeong let go just as Sejun began to gasp for air. He then filled Sejun’s empty glass, the one used to soak his pants, to the brim and downed it in one gulp.

He had expected it since the kiss, but this meant he was staying the night.

But, while the situation was going exactly as Sejun wanted…… why was he feeling like he had suffered a great disaster? To be precise, it felt like he had dug his own grave…and there was no way to explain that strange sensation.

Cha Dogyeong emptied glass after glass in quick succession. While Sejun watched his lover drinking alone in front of him with a strange look, Cha Dogyeong spoke.

“Hyung, do you know something?”

“What?”

“I’ve never put all of myself inside hyung.”

Sejun blinked. He couldn’t understand the meaning of what he had just heard . Even though he hadn’t been drinking, his head was spinning.

How bizarre. There were too many things about Cha Dogyeong’s words today that he couldn’t understand.

However, Sejun soon realized what it meant and was startled.

“What kind of bullshit is that! You definitely…… at first! You put it all in!”

He clearly remembered feeling the coarse pubic hair touching his buttocks and Cha Dogyeong sounding relieved as he said, ‘I finally got it all in.’ So what kind of bullshit was this?

Cha Dogyeong smiled brightly and shook his head.

“I said it all went in to reassure you…… but it wasn’t all of it.”

But he says that wasn’t the case. Sejun’s complexion turned pale.

“I was scared because hyung’s lower abdomen was bulging out. I was afraid you’d get hurt.”

My Hyung has pretty abs, too, but for it to bulge like that, huh?

And then another drink.

Sejun was devastated. It was something he had never known, and something he hadn’t wanted to know. He felt somewhat sick because he thought he knew the reason why he was being told this now.

“I was so scared you would break that I never even tried. But since you has become sturdy now.”

“No, hey, wait a minute……”

“I guess I can shove it in all the way to the end, right?”

Why are ominous premisses never wrong? Sejun’s body trembled. It had already been a struggle to take it all until now; if he shoved it in more, he was going to die.

“No! Do you think that’ll work?”

Cha Dogyeong didn’t respond to those words.

“Shall I tell you one more thing?”

“What else!”

“I’ve never once done it with hyung to my satisfaction.”

What kind of talk was this again? Even after seeing Sejun’s baffled expression, Cha Dogyeong didn’t stop talking. On the contrary, he filled the glass once more and downed it in one shot again. The plastic bottle that had been full of beer was being emptied in an instant.

Sejun’s clumsy seduction had pushed the guy’s buttons.

“I held it in because I was scared you’d run away, calling me a madman, saying you were scared. Once, there was even an interruption……”

“Hold back what! You always did whatever you wanted!”

“I did hold back, though.”

Sejun finally couldn’t take it and blurted out what he had been thinking, but Cha Dogyeong didn’t care. Rather, the way he smiled was far too unsettling.

Sejun unconsciously distanced himself from Cha Dogyeong by one space. Dogyeong only watched Sejun’s clumsy and pathetic attempt at escape with a smile.

“Can I stop holding back now?”

Sejun didn’t answer. He had detested it the whole time, but he didn’t know how to respond.

He hadn’t been able to put it all in until now? Was that something that could even be held back? But it’s been hard enough even until now. But since he’s a man, he knows how painful that is. Ah, I’m going crazy.